Just Angry

Lately it seems that I have been losing control of my emotions, so much so that I am feeling angry and upset almost everyday.

Since I cant really talk to anyone about what has been gone on in my life, I guess I am stuck trying to deal with my emotions alone. During the day at work, I do my best to not let it get to me. But its when i'm alone on the way home or alone in my room, when the demons start breaking me down.

I feel like crying.

Sometimes, it just hurts so much inside and I want to scream. Most days, I just try to ignore it. I guess over the weekend things just got worse. He said I have mood swings.

No. Its not.

It is just hard to keep it inside and not having anyone to talk to. I know how people will judge me if they knew. I know I cannot talk to any of my girl friends about this. I know its wrong. Its like I am slowly digging my own grave.

I know that it will be ending soon. I am trying to face the facts that no matter how much efforts I put into something, sometimes it just doesn't happen.

Its just not meant to be.

Never.

I just have to either accept it or just leave.