Just another Day in Loony TownWas napping when I was woken up by my sister's scream.
In case you haven't heard, my family is crazy.
Let me do a quick recap...
When things started to get worse about 3 years ago, each family member went nuts. My mum was not eating and went to stay with my aunt; dad tried to kill himself as well and mum; sister had a mental breakdown and moved in with her bf.
I was left mostly alone by myself.
And no, I did not breakdown.
Why? I saw all their emotions in front of me so clearly, that I forgot what I was supposed to feel. I just stopped feeling for myself. Since that day, I have not cried. There were times that I tried to cry, but failed badly.
If you know me, its hard to believe that I'm ACTUALLY the only SANE one in the family. Given my weird temper and such, you can imagine what my family was like.
Ten times worse than me.
I fully understand that everyone is entitled to their emotional period and theirs needs to break down once in a while. I did it before and now I think its an utter waste of time.
I just don't see why I should be the one clearing up your emotional mess.
Personally, I feel that they overinduldged themselves in such dramas. Somedays, I feel like killing them. I'm serious. There was a period of time that I thought the best thing to do was to kill my dad so that my mum could live in peace.
Well, that was 3 years ago. Since their separation, mum and dad sorta returned to normal (most of the time). But I'm not too sure about my sister though. But I don't really care anymore.
Just like how I don't give a damm about most people.
I'm just waiting.
I'm waiting to see how far all these can go and if I will ever have a mental breakdown too.
When will the Lamps stop screaming?
