What does it mean to be human?

Been unable to sleep for the longest time... People tell me that I think too much. I don't disagree with them. It is true that I think alot more than other people. Ignorance is bliss. I envy those people who can fall asleep immediately the moment their heads touch the pillow. For me, it is more of the "I-wanna-stab-my-fucking-pillow...why-cant-I-fall-slp-NOW".

Why is it so difficult for me to slp?

Many reasons...

1. I tend to think alot about stuff.. Its not always about personal issues. Sometimes. it could be very random thoughts like why do people in general turn to their right when shopping? Or maybe about the TV progamme about how the brain functions?

2. I dont really know how I think about certain people, certain issues, certain events. I have so much thoughts that I don't know how to put them in place. Somestimes, I'm so overwhelmed till i want to cant slp at night. I need a filling systems for my feelings.

I hate to admit this but lately, I've been trying to cry myself to sleep. Not that I'm really upset or anything. I just want to know if I still can feel. Just to see if I'm still human or not.

I tried. Really. But I cant cry. I dun feel unhappy. I dun feel sad. I dun know what the fucking hell I feel. I dun like this. I much rather be sad and unhappy. At least I know how to manage these feelings.

But now, I dun have them anymore. Maybe I'm really empty inside?!

What does it mean to be human? Can a person truly be void of emotions?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.