An Open Letter to My Best Friend

Dearest you,

I know chances of you reading this is approximately one in a million but I'm still writing this because I cant tell it to you in person.

I really want to thank you for driving down all the way from your home in the wee hours of the morning to celebrate my birthday. I've been waiting for this for 3 years. Yes, 3 years. You made me felt really special that morning. Mcdonalds hotcakes meal, or pancakes as you insisted on calling them, sneaking to the cake shop to buy 3 little birthday cakes for me and surprising me from behind. The way you sang "Happy Birthday" to me.

Like you said, it was indeed surreal.

Even though we only spent an hour eating and you had to rush off to the seminar, it was the best birthday ever. Really. I could not tell you how happy i was..

There are things that I wished I could say to you but I cant. Something so right that was so wrong. I've decided not to say it. Like the Eeyore you gave me, I've locked it inside my closet. You were my special whale. And you'll always be.

I'm deleting you from my phone. =(


Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

It's all right, I'm O.K.

There's a lot of things, I don't understand

And there's a lot of things, I don't want to know

But you're the only face, I recognize

It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes

It's all right, I'm O.K., I think God can explain

I believe I'm the same, I get carried away

It's all right, I'm O.K., I think God can explain

I'm relieved, I'm relaxed, I'll get over it yet

The scent of vaseline in the summertime

The feel of an icecube melting overtime

The world seems bigger than both of us

Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry

I'm so much better than you guessed

I'm so much bigger than you guessed

I'm so much brighter than you guessed

25th May 1984 - 25th May 2007

Your birth on the 25th day of the month (7 energy) modifies your life path by giving you some special interest in technical, scientific, or other complex and often hard to understand subjects. You may become something of a perfectionist and a stickler for details. Your thinking is logical and intuitive, rational and responsible. Your feelings may run deep, but you are not very likely to let them show. This birthday makes you a more private person, more introspective and perhaps more inflexible. In friendships you are very cautious and reserved. You are probably inventive, and given to unique approaches and solutions.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Durffy died today

My head hurts from crying. Durffy died today. I saw him die. In my arms. Felt his body turn cold.

I feel empty.

Where are you when I need you?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.