You Got Mail

"I like to start my notes to you as if we're already in the middle of a conversation. I pretend that we're the oldest and dearest friends -- as opposed to what we actually are, people who don't know each other's names and met in a Chat Room where we both claimed we'd never been before.What will he say today, I wonder. I turn on my computer, I wait impatiently as it boots up. I go on line, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail"

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

And I love you so

And I love you so

The people ask me how

How I live till now

I tell them I don't know

I guess they understand

How lonely life has been

But life began again

The day you took my hand

And yes I know how lonely life can be

The shadows follow me

And the night won't set me free

But I don't let the evening get me down

Now that you're around me

And you love me too

Your thoughts are just for me

You set my spirit free

I'm happy that you do

The book of life is brief

And once a page is read

All but love is dead

That is my belief

And I love you so

The people ask me how

How I live till now I tell them I don't know

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Standard Life Operating Procedures

I was shopping for some tea bags and sugar at the supermarket. Based on common sense, I walked to the aisle for beverages. Picked out a box of Earl Grey and a box of "Quietly Chamomile".. next logical thought.. I need sugar..

Then, I realised that there was no sugar next to the shelves of tea. Walked around.. and around the supermarket only to discover that they placed packets of sugar next to.... RICE.

Who, in the right frame of mind, cooks rice with SUGAR?

Should I be bothered by the fact that I am bothered by the fact that sugar is not placed near the tea bags? I mean, this is common logic/sense that people who buy tea bags would need sugar for their tea. I had to walk all the way to the other side of the supermarket to get the sugar. And trust me, its right at the other end of the world.

People are so weird. But then again, is it strange for me to actually want things to be placed in a certain way?

Actually, I have a S.L.O.P in my life, which means Standard Life Operating Procedures.

Basically, these are invisible sets of rules and regulations that I use in my life. For example:


Rules about the food that I eat

(1) Some food are not meant to be shared. (eg. soft boiled eggs, potato chips, burgers etc) Basically, this rule covers ALL food that comes in a single serving. Since it is also stated as a SINGLE serving, then only one person can eat it... ME. Hence, if the food is meant for sharing, it should be ordered separately and not as a part of a set meal. Plus, I don't like people eating off my plate/bowl without asking. =(

(2) Stale water are not meant for drinking.
If a cup of water (be it soft drinks or just plain water) is left on the table for more than half a day, it is (based on my standards) not fit for consumption. The same rule applies for drinks with ice that have melted. They are not fit for drinking if all the ice are melted.

(3) I don't eat half eaten food.
Yes. I know there are straving children in Africa. But i just don't like eating people's leftovers. The same rule applies for other people too. I don't offer people my leftovers. Another way to look at this is actually kind of like replacing food with Bf. I don't offer my ex-bfs to other people when I'm done with them. Its NOT nice and definitely RUDE.

Its strange how I think of food and Bfs together. But anyway, they are quite similar.. they both have expiry dates. Moving on..


Rules about non-food items

(1) CDs should be arranged according to their genre.
Yes. I do place my CDs according to their genre. Jazz/Blues, Pop & Rock (English), Pop & Rock (Chinese) and all futher sub-catagorised to Males and Females.

(2) Magazines
I read magazines from back to front, then front and back.

I can go on and on and on.. But due to the lack of time and I DO sense your boredom through the electrical vibes. So, I'm going to stop.

Till I'm back with some more freak stories...

P/s: If anyone happens to visit the Shop & Save supermarket at Pasir Ris, do remember to look out for the sugar packets near the stacks of rice. Please tell me if you think its weird by emailing me @ medea_lim@yahoo.com. Thanks!

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

A moment

Would like to take a moment of silence for my cousin who passed away exactly one year ago.

Though I don't know you as well as I should, I do still feel very upset when I know what I wun have that chance any more now that you are gone. I do hope that you are in a much better and happier place now.

Things will be better, right?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Movies to watch

As a self proclaimed fan of movies with black humour or death theams.. here are some movies to watch this holiday season..

http://www.severancethemovie.co.uk/
http://www.theblackdahliamovie.net/
http://www.encorefilms.com/deathnote.html

Hey.. this DOES NOT mean I'm crazy. Please refer to the personality tests below. I'm only 48& abnormal.


Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Phew~ Only 48% Abnormal

You Are 48% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at high risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is very likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

You May Be a Bit Borderline ~

You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame! When you're up, you're a little bit crazy... And when you're down, your whole world is crashing Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

What Personality Disorder Are You?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

You are a Fozzie Bear!

You Are Fozzie Bear

"Wocka! Wocka!" You're the life of the party, and you love making people crack up. If only your routine didn't always bomb! You may find more groans than laughs, but always keep the jokes coming.

The Muppet Personality Test

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Region Locked DVDs Player, You are my worthy Nemesis

You wouldn't believe it. I don't believe it! I did it. After days and days of staring at my laptop up to 1am in the mornings, trying to fix the Region DVD problems.....

I did it!

The feeling is amazing. Its the feeling of PURE satisfaction. Almost better than an orgasm if I may say so.

After millions (quite literally) of times of downloading and re-downloading the different firmware/software/patches/dvd players, I can finally now play my DVDs in my PowerDVD player. Hurrays ~ ~ Cheers to the software engineers who cracked those stupid regions problems in DVD players.

And you know what? Quite ironically, I don't feel like watch my DVDs anymore.

I'm too tired.

I just want to sleep.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

The Joy and Peace of Singlehood

Sundays are meant for:

- Sleeping till noon, waking up only to stare emotionlessly at the TV
- Exercising : Channel surfing up to the maximum speed of 4 channels/second
- Napping after 4 hours of eating and staring emotionlessly at the TV
- Waking up after napping only to continue staring emotionlessly at the TV
- Bedtime

I had a good weekend. How about you?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Humor's Sexual Side

A very interesting article about how men and women view humour, in the sexual way. I'm more often know as the "funny gal" instead of the "pretty gal". Hence, humour, obviously, is my weapon of choice when it comes to hunting down the men and their tiny penises.

Click here to view. Good stuff.


Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Penis News

Another way to prove the fact that I am a gay man trapped in a 22 year old gal's body, here's some penis news updates. Enjoy.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/china/story/0,,1874817,00.html

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Love Conquers All. Or so You think.

In the 21st centuary, most of us would think/assume that we live in a civilised world with no social classes. It seems that humans all have their equal rights when it comes to job/education/dating etc.

However, recently, I begin to feel that maybe that world doesn't really exist. Especially in the dating world.

Take me and my fellow gal pals at work for example.. we are not exactly the rich men's daughter type but we are not poor neither. On the average, we earn enough to live a very comfortable lifestyle. Nice restaurants, shopping trips (weekly, or maybe even daily!), long vacations, nails/hair treatment.. I hate to admit this but we are quite "high-maintenance".

It is not that we discriminate against guys who earn lesser than us. You think its romantic to live on nothing but bread and wine alone when you are in love. But reality bites when you realise that you are making the guy feel inferior about himself. He may not feel good when you want to go to a nice place and even offers to pay his share of the meal. He feels bad that the present you get for him for Christmas costs more than what he bought for you. The only places you guys go to for trips are to Penang/KL/Bangkok cause its much cheaper.

The only way for this relationship to work - Fairytales or Chick Flick.

Its not his fault that he earns lesser. But I want to enjoy my success and not feel guilty for it. Moreover, relationships are already very complicated without issues like money/marriage/religion/babies. So I guess, the only choice is to date people who financially similar.

Its hard to ignore this when we live in a world that is so unromantic. Most Singapore gals would want to see the guy's bank book before even saying "Yes". This actually reminds me of 2 equations that I thought of lately.

Cute guy + Ugly Gal = True Love

Ugly man + Pretty Gal = Gold digger

I'm not sure if the above is true. I could be wrong. But if thats really the truth... like what I always say, What kind of sick world am I living in?

Love conquers all, you say?

I don't think so.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Why love when Love hurts? Why love when Love ends?

Hey.. Its been a long time since I last blogged. Guess I was kinda caught up in the real life.. Hasn't been feeling that great lately but I cant really pin point what I'm unhappy about. But I know this feeling will pass very soon. I hope it will cause I don't like feeling empty all the time.

Work, quite ironically, has been good. Achieving more than 100% of my quater targets. Earning so much more than peers my own age. This seems to be the only plus side of my life right now.

But is that all there is to a person?

I hate it when people have too much expectations of me. Sometimes, its so tiring and I just want to scream "Back off! Enough is enough!" Targets, numbers, sales.. They really don't mean that much to me. Well, at least now they don't. I feel that I don't want to be judged by the amount of sales I bring in, more sales = better person... I'm human. That's not all to a human being! What a sick world I live in?! ~

Breathe.

Just remember to breathe.

Love life, at this very moment, sux big time. Ended up being the 3rd party for the millionth time AGAIN! Seriously, I don't really even like him cause he's so NOT my type. I believe my feelings for him is actually a reflection of how I think he wants me to feel for him. Its not real. But anyway, it doesn't matter cause its not happening.

Seriously, sometimes I think that I subconsiously seek out married/attached men because I want to be in a commitment-free relationship. You see, men who are attached/married cannot ask me to be their gfs so I can come and go as I want and I don't have to be responsible for their feelings. Some gals may think that the guy would actually leave their gf/wife for them. But I'm living prove that they don't. Most of them don't want to leave their other half because they are so comfortable with them and they don't want to be the bad guy who fools around and ditches their gfs.

In the end, you'll end up with nothing. Lose-Lose situation. So why bother starting something that you know will end?

Why love when Love hurts? Why love when Love ends?

Anyway, the whole relationship/love/emotional stuff is getting to me so I'm just going to say "Fuck It". Literally. I'm not going to waste my time/effort. Its so not worth it anymore.

Nothing is really worth it.

I just want to lie here and let my sins eat me alive.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.