But what hurts the most was that after fighting so long and so hard, we did not manage to keep the team together. The feeling is exactly the same as losing a family member.
I've lost my family too, so I know what I'm talking about.
Sometimes, I really ask myself, is it really worth fighting on and on? And I ask myself, am I ready to say I give up and quit altogether?
No.
A very firm No.
Its not only about work. Its because I really believe in what JN has shown me. I really do believe that we should not give up so easily. I share the same views/values and I hope we can on day see the team grow to a stable team. Even if there only 2 of us left in the team, as long as my team lead tells me that she has not given up, I will stand by her.
I swear.
In life, one must really find a cause to live for. If now, 20 to 30 years from now, it'll all be gone. It is as though we have not lived. Without beliefs, we have nothing.
I do believe in trying to find greater causes in life. But its not easy to find someone to share the passion with. I hope that one day, when my family settles down, and I have no more worries back home, I will leave everything and search for it.
I know its silly to think this way. People may say I'm crazy. But I don't want to live without knowing if I can do something greater or better. When I die, I want to shout out loud to say "I'm glad I'm going cause I know I'm DONE with life!"
Yes. That's what I want to say.
Those will be my last words!
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
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