Once in a while, when I'm alone on the bus or at home, I tend to let my thoughts wonder. Lately, all my thoughts goes back to a certain someone. A fren I chose to let go of. Its been 3 months.
How are you?
Are you still happily attached to your gal? Are you still winning every toury? Still going places that I might never go? Do u think of me too? I miss having a fren to talk to. One who never judge me. One who laughs at my corny jokes and think that I'm funny.
We may never speak again. We may never meet.
Take care, my fren.
I miss u.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
25 Things that a Guy should know
If you are a guy, read this.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
1st Year Anniversary
Today marks the 1st year anniversary of my career with Recruit Express. But yet, on this very day, I see my team fall apart. 2 members resigned today. What can I say? People have different aspirations, dreams and values. I cannot force them to stay.
But what hurts the most was that after fighting so long and so hard, we did not manage to keep the team together. The feeling is exactly the same as losing a family member.
I've lost my family too, so I know what I'm talking about.
Sometimes, I really ask myself, is it really worth fighting on and on? And I ask myself, am I ready to say I give up and quit altogether?
Its not only about work. Its because I really believe in what JN has shown me. I really do believe that we should not give up so easily. I share the same views/values and I hope we can on day see the team grow to a stable team. Even if there only 2 of us left in the team, as long as my team lead tells me that she has not given up, I will stand by her.
In life, one must really find a cause to live for. If now, 20 to 30 years from now, it'll all be gone. It is as though we have not lived. Without beliefs, we have nothing.
I do believe in trying to find greater causes in life. But its not easy to find someone to share the passion with. I hope that one day, when my family settles down, and I have no more worries back home, I will leave everything and search for it.
I know its silly to think this way. People may say I'm crazy. But I don't want to live without knowing if I can do something greater or better. When I die, I want to shout out loud to say "I'm glad I'm going cause I know I'm DONE with life!"
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
But what hurts the most was that after fighting so long and so hard, we did not manage to keep the team together. The feeling is exactly the same as losing a family member.
I've lost my family too, so I know what I'm talking about.
Sometimes, I really ask myself, is it really worth fighting on and on? And I ask myself, am I ready to say I give up and quit altogether?
No.
A very firm No.
Its not only about work. Its because I really believe in what JN has shown me. I really do believe that we should not give up so easily. I share the same views/values and I hope we can on day see the team grow to a stable team. Even if there only 2 of us left in the team, as long as my team lead tells me that she has not given up, I will stand by her.
I swear.
In life, one must really find a cause to live for. If now, 20 to 30 years from now, it'll all be gone. It is as though we have not lived. Without beliefs, we have nothing.
I do believe in trying to find greater causes in life. But its not easy to find someone to share the passion with. I hope that one day, when my family settles down, and I have no more worries back home, I will leave everything and search for it.
I know its silly to think this way. People may say I'm crazy. But I don't want to live without knowing if I can do something greater or better. When I die, I want to shout out loud to say "I'm glad I'm going cause I know I'm DONE with life!"
Yes. That's what I want to say.
Those will be my last words!
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Love, Rekindled.
I have just fallen in love. Wait. Correction. I have rekindled my love for my fave singer, David Tao. But its more than his songs. Its him. Someone who is so comfortable with himself. Confident. No hidde aggenda.aka.I don't want you to know so much about me.I'm emotionally unavailable kind of stuff. Someone who really believes in world peace. Cares enough to writes songs about it. Preaches too much about what's right or wrong. Someone who loves the the Golden Era (1930s to 1940s).
I love David Tao.
Ok. Shut up now. I have to go back to my cage.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
I love David Tao.
Ok. Shut up now. I have to go back to my cage.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Hello
I have been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I have kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you are looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You are all I have ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
´Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I wanna tell you so much
I love you...
I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time & time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I have just got to let you know
´Cause I wonder where you´re
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I´ven´t got a clue
But let me start by saying
I love you...
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You are all I have ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
´Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I wanna tell you so much
I love you...
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
And in my dreams I have kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you are looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You are all I have ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
´Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I wanna tell you so much
I love you...
I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time & time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I have just got to let you know
´Cause I wonder where you´re
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I´ven´t got a clue
But let me start by saying
I love you...
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You are all I have ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
´Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I wanna tell you so much
I love you...
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Thank God, its Sunday.
Back with another lazy Sunday afternoon post.. I love Sundays.. Its always nice to just chill and do absolutely N-O-T-H-I-N-G. Sundays are the days I put aside everything and concentrate on my fave activities:
1) Screening my calls/sms/msn
2) Turning down invites to hang out with friends
3) Put myself in an "Offline" mode, which means I, literally, STOP THINKING
4) Filling my plastic Coke Cup with exactly 32oz of water and drinking it while watching brainless TV shows
5) Surfing frens' blogs
6) Playing my fave bad cheesy music so loudly that my neighbours bang on my door and threaten to kill themselves/move to another planet/chew their heads off
Yes. Sundays are the days when I'm the least productive human on Earth. I should be recycled to make paper mache decorations.
Anyway, enough of my crap.
Lately, my good fren Em was introduced to a guy. He's a scholar from Harvard and working with the Govt. I guess he likes her but they were sort of like holding back because they both didn't want to appear too desperate. So, each time Em msg him, she has to try to appear as nonchalent as possible.
I don't understand. Why is it so difficult to tell someone "I like you"? Why cant we be honest and less pretentious? Its it because we all fear being rejected? Ok. I'm just saying it. I personally have no right to comment because I suck at this too. Like how I cannot function like a normal person in front of the person I like, how I get so tongue-tight and nervous that the simplest "Hi" comes out more like "Hhhh..hhh...hhii". After which, I immediately break into a million pieces, burst into flames and die.
I'm a freak.
Sometimes, I wish I have more guts to go up to him and say "Hey, wanna go out for drinks/movie?". Maybe its because I don't believe that I'm good enough. Whatever it is, if i really do end up alone, I'll most prob buy a nice apartment with a good sea view.
Speaking for making myself happy, yesterday, while shopping with Em and CQ, I bought a vintage metal butterfly necklace which (according to the lady in the store) dates back to the Qing era (1644 to 1910). People who knows me know that I personally cannot stand the pictures of butterflies. Be it a tattoo design or just pictures, I don't like them. Strangely, I like the necklace so much that I actually spent close to $100 on it.
Its just one of those things that I know I must have it. If not, I'll keep thinking about it and eventually go back to get it the next day. I like to think about the person who used to own it. Maybe she's a young girl who wore it as a hairpin during that period of time. She eventually dies, leaving behind this hairpin for her lover who never returns from war. Years later, someone found this hairpin among her belongings and sold it to a jewellery store. The owner, in turns, made the hairpin into a pendant for a necklace and sold it to Singapore.
I love stories. I love things with stories behind them. I love making up stories.
Ok. I think too much. I'm a freak who lives in my own queer world. Maybe this is why I always attract the wrong guys. Guys with too much history/baggage. Then again, this describes all the men I know.. so maybe this is God's way of telling me to that I should date outside this Solar system. Maybe Martians?
Mum bought me flowers for my room today. I love fresh flowers. I'm going to put on my fave CDs and read my book.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
1) Screening my calls/sms/msn
2) Turning down invites to hang out with friends
3) Put myself in an "Offline" mode, which means I, literally, STOP THINKING
4) Filling my plastic Coke Cup with exactly 32oz of water and drinking it while watching brainless TV shows
5) Surfing frens' blogs
6) Playing my fave bad cheesy music so loudly that my neighbours bang on my door and threaten to kill themselves/move to another planet/chew their heads off
Yes. Sundays are the days when I'm the least productive human on Earth. I should be recycled to make paper mache decorations.
Anyway, enough of my crap.
Lately, my good fren Em was introduced to a guy. He's a scholar from Harvard and working with the Govt. I guess he likes her but they were sort of like holding back because they both didn't want to appear too desperate. So, each time Em msg him, she has to try to appear as nonchalent as possible.
The Games People Play..
I don't understand. Why is it so difficult to tell someone "I like you"? Why cant we be honest and less pretentious? Its it because we all fear being rejected? Ok. I'm just saying it. I personally have no right to comment because I suck at this too. Like how I cannot function like a normal person in front of the person I like, how I get so tongue-tight and nervous that the simplest "Hi" comes out more like "Hhhh..hhh...hhii". After which, I immediately break into a million pieces, burst into flames and die.
I'm a freak.
Sometimes, I wish I have more guts to go up to him and say "Hey, wanna go out for drinks/movie?". Maybe its because I don't believe that I'm good enough. Whatever it is, if i really do end up alone, I'll most prob buy a nice apartment with a good sea view.
I have no love. I need to make myself happy.
Speaking for making myself happy, yesterday, while shopping with Em and CQ, I bought a vintage metal butterfly necklace which (according to the lady in the store) dates back to the Qing era (1644 to 1910). People who knows me know that I personally cannot stand the pictures of butterflies. Be it a tattoo design or just pictures, I don't like them. Strangely, I like the necklace so much that I actually spent close to $100 on it.
I have no love. I need to make myself happy.
Its just one of those things that I know I must have it. If not, I'll keep thinking about it and eventually go back to get it the next day. I like to think about the person who used to own it. Maybe she's a young girl who wore it as a hairpin during that period of time. She eventually dies, leaving behind this hairpin for her lover who never returns from war. Years later, someone found this hairpin among her belongings and sold it to a jewellery store. The owner, in turns, made the hairpin into a pendant for a necklace and sold it to Singapore.
I love stories. I love things with stories behind them. I love making up stories.
Ok. I think too much. I'm a freak who lives in my own queer world. Maybe this is why I always attract the wrong guys. Guys with too much history/baggage. Then again, this describes all the men I know.. so maybe this is God's way of telling me to that I should date outside this Solar system. Maybe Martians?
Mum bought me flowers for my room today. I love fresh flowers. I'm going to put on my fave CDs and read my book.
I love Sundays.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
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