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Was bored during the weekly meeting when I saw this little sentence on the side of the tissue box, which was sitting on the table..
"Something to Smile About."
Indeed, there are many things in life that we should smile about. Ice-cream on a hot sunny day..Balloons!! Blanket on a rainy day.. Cute shop assistants while shopping.. Flirty sms.. Corny jokes..
These are some of the things that will make me smile. I guess people need to find joy in the little things in life. If not, we'll all end up crazy. Esp when you really have nothing left.. Times when you feel like you are standing on a cliff, alone in the darkness, screaming but there's no one to hear you.
I try to keep myself happy. Happy thoughts highly encouraged. I've gotten very good at pretending nothing's wrong, so good that people around me believe I'm happy too. That's how I like things to be. I don't need people to pity/judge me just because there are things happening in my life that I cannot control.
Like the fact that my family members like to stand and cry at my door.
I don't know why. There are times when Dad, Mum and Sis like to stand and cry at my door. Do I look like a psychiatrist? Everytime, I'll open the door and stare blankly at them. I have no comforting words for them because I know they are not thinking logically and whatever I say would mean nothing to them. Unlike them, I don't have the habit to run and cry to people everytime something goes wrong. I'm not proud of this fact. I know this makes me emotionally detached from people. I'll try to do something about it.
*tIng shrugs.*
If I don't try to keep myself happy, I don't know if I'll be able to survive this. Oh, by the way, I just realised that I can declare insanity and claim up to $200,000 from my insurance policy.
Now, that is something thats worth a thought.
Haha.. I can definately prove that insanity runs in the family. Just look at my Grandma, Dad, Mum and Sister. Living prove of my family's history of mental illness.
Like what they say, its all in the genes.
I'm very sure that we are not suitable candidates for sperm/egg doners based on that fact. I wonder how much do sperm/egg doners get? Hmmm.. I know males dogs get about $300 each time cause my Sis was so broke that she thot of pimping my dog. But how much do humans get?
I'll feel very sorry for the guy if he gets less than $300 for his sperm. *tsk tsk*
Then again, Men are cheap bastards anyway.. *shrugs*
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Still very upset with Shaun. I feel sorry that I've to cut him off and out of my life. I thought he was my friend. A friend that would understand me and someone I could talk to. But I think its all in my mind only. I'm the only one who is in this friendship. He doesn't bother to call/msg me. He didn't show up on my birthday, twice.
The sense of betrayal is too much to me.
I've decided to let go of this friendship.
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Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
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