1) I find safety and comfort at the bar because I know for a fact that no men will be interested in me or try to bring me home.
2) I can have perfectly harmless body2body dancing with all the men without giving them the wrong idea. Seriously, I've never been "sandwiched" by so many men before. Its absolutely scandalous!
3) The men are H.O.T. They have fantastic bodies and moves I've never seen!
4) Nice tranny shows. The MC is definately my kinda of guy... or rather.. my kinda of gal?!
5) Cheap entry! Even though I was kinda pissed that I have to pay $13 to get into a club where I know for sure that I'll go home alone. Still, its better than getting pick-up by some UGLY freak at Zouk./DlbO/MOS etc.
6) I think I kinda had enough of straight men. Straight love has become closeted. True love is so free in the gay community.. you'll think you are in the UN.
7) Friendly people. There's definately less discrimination and anger in the gay community. Everyone LOVES everyone.
8) I've had enough to trying to look pretty and "cool". I just wanna have fun.
9) I dunno what else to say.. I'm sexually confused?! I might turn lesbian and fall in love with a gay man. You know what I mean.
There's so many reasons why I like AJ bars than straight clubs. People find it strange that I choose to mix around with AJs rather than "normal" people. I dislike the word "normal". Its being used too loosely and people tend to abuse it. Just because we are different or our way of life is different doesn't necessary mean we are abnormal.
Everyone is a freak in their own way.
Skeleton in the closets.
Who am I to judge?
I don't see gay people as any different from straight people. I prefer to look beyond gender and see it as two people in love. Its all about the state of mind.
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Kong called me the other day and asked me out for a movie, which he immediately called back half an hour later to cancel it. Apparently, his sister's bf had an accident so he's going to use the car this weekend. He asked if I mind traveling around in cabs or bus. I don't mind that. But I just don't feel like being so "available" to him anymore. I hate it when he takes me for granted.
I hate it when everyone takes me for granted.
Friends. Family. Just because I'm always around doesn't mean I'll be here forever. Who knows I might just decide to kill myself tomorrow at work? Who's going to do the laundry? Feed the dogs? Clean the house?
Feeling demented. Mood and behaviour is unpredictable. Like the other night, I felt like having dinner alone. So I bought 2 magazines and got myself a table at Billy bombers. I don't think why I shouldn't have a good dinner just because I'm eating alone. Tje waitress at Billy's refused to let me have one of those nice sofa seats even though there were like at least 20 empty seats around because "they are reserved for party of 2 at least".
I hate it when they discriminate against singles.
Just because we are single means we don't deserve the same service?
Got irritated by that fact but instead of flaring up, I told the waitress nicely that I needed to speak to the Manager, whom immediately offered me the seat I wanted. *shrugs* What can I say?
A single gal gotta take care of herself.
Spent the next 2 hours, eating and tearing through my 2 magazines. Feeling satisfied, I left them a small tip. I always tip. Its not that I think its showy to tip. But I appreciate them giving me the seat I wanted so I tipped them. Its not much but I think its a nice gesture. Come to think of it, Kong was the only guy who tipped service staff when we go out. *shrugs*
After that, I went home and dyed my hair red. No reason. Just did it cause I felt like it. That's the thing with me. I do things on the notion that I feel like doing it. No one can tell me what I should do or should not do. I know for a fact that I will not listen to anyone. Like in the past, there were times when I was shopping alone, the next moment you'll find me in a jewellery shop, piercing my ears. *shurgs* I might go for a Playboy bunny tattoo next. I don't know when. Maybe when I feel like it.
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Its my birthday next week. Don't intend to celebrate it in a RaRa mananer but just going to Zouk on Wed with some close friends. Also, I've booked a chalet for the weekend. Think its about time i disappear for awhile.
I wonder if people notice when I'm gone.
Love me when I'm gone.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
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