*tIng raises her eyebrow.*
I wanted to tell the little birdie that he was so wrong about me but I held my tongue. I guess my behaviour at work does shows that I'm pretty "agressive & demanding". But that's because I don't want to show the "gentle" side of me, for the fear of letting people know I can be vulnerable.
I believe that how Don feels as well. We both feel that we need to be stronger on the surface so that people will not take advantage of us. So strong on the outside that people may think we are cold, unfeeling and aloof and we do not need others to shower us with care. They most prob never guessed that we are the ones who hide secretly in our beds, crying ourselves to sleep.
We are much more fragile than what we appear to be.
*tIng shrugs.*
I guess its because we find it hard to trust other people, be it friends or colleagues. We don't let people into our hearts easily. I don't think I'll fall in love anyone as easily as before. Sure I do have people whom I find attractive and cute, but they are also the people I avoid. I'm terrible at this. Like the situation with Denys, I cant bring myself to even talk to him or sit beside him. Instead of trying to talking to him, I stood aside and talked to Felix all night. Its amazing how I can have perfect conversations with guys I'm not the least bit interested in.
I guess its because we find it hard to trust other people, be it friends or colleagues. We don't let people into our hearts easily. I don't think I'll fall in love anyone as easily as before. Sure I do have people whom I find attractive and cute, but they are also the people I avoid. I'm terrible at this. Like the situation with Denys, I cant bring myself to even talk to him or sit beside him. Instead of trying to talking to him, I stood aside and talked to Felix all night. Its amazing how I can have perfect conversations with guys I'm not the least bit interested in.
Yes, I'm that shy.
It sucks.
Its incurable.
I'll most prob die alone.
A fact that I must admit IS pretty scary.
I've always felt that I'm never good enough. Am I enough for that someone? I'm not particularly smart or pretty. I'm only me. Is that enough? Maybe I should just win them over with my personality? Then again, I'm quite a freak. So I guess I'm a gone case?!!
*tIng sighs.*
I shall try NOT to snub the guys I like. =(
Maybe I should head straight to lesbian ville instead.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
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