I wish you love

Late in the night, as she lay in bed, tossing and turning, wide-eyed and unable to sleep. Suddenly, the song came on the radio. She smiled.

1997. One Sunday afternoon. She was skating. Her hands were cold, even though she was wearing wollen gloves.

The song was playing.

He came around behind her, overtaking her in an instant. Suddenly, he grabbed her hand and pulled her towards him.

She blushed and pulled away her hand.

He was a boy. Like a cyclone, he came but disappeared quickly in her life. All that was left was memories of those Sunday afternoons spent at the rink. And of course, the song.

Sometimes, she wondered, what happened to the boy? What would have happened if she did not pull her hand away? Then again, she'll never know.

To the boy I used to know from a very long time ago.

I wish you well.

I wish you hope.

But most of all, I wish you love.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Unacceptable standards

With the constant advancement of technology, people have been able to communicate at a much faster and more efficient rate. Hence, I find it totally unacceptable when people fail to

1) Return calls
2) Reply sms
3) Reply emails

All of the above should be done within 1 hour. That is, unless of course, you are:

1) In a middle of life threathening situation
2) In the process of avoiding a life threathening situation
3) Six feet underground due to a life threathening situation
4) Burying someone whom you accidentally killed during a life threathening situation

Other than those situations above, it would be deemed as unacceptable, and not forgetting to mention, unforgivable, to not reply me.

Even Mac delivers within 45 minutes.

Anywhere.

24 X 7.


Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Obsession is a dangerous state of mind

Warning : Highly addictive. Try out these games ONLY if you are REALLY bored.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Truth or Dare: 6th Floor Rear Flat

Saturday afternoon. Sun setting in the faraway horizon, orange blinding glow. Came home from half a day at work.

Tired.

Sleepy.

Fluish.

Went to the supermarket, bought a new bottle of strawberry jam and a new tray of eggs. Thot of inviting D over for a bite but thought against it in the end. Instead, I rented 2 vcds, headed home and made french toast with strawberry jam and a nice hot cup of tea.

Rented this movie "6th Floor Rear Flat". I've watched this movie a very long time ago when I was working at GVTM. Not many people have heard of this show. But i thot i was quite nice. Throughout the movie, the 6 main characters kept playing the game "Truth or Dare". After watching the movie, I kept thinking about why do most people stop themselves from saying what they really feel or what they think?

I think the reason why most people do not say what they feel is because they do not like the way it sounds. Words like "I'm lonely" or "I'm scared"..

I hate to admit this that's why I don't say them.

When confronted with the game, these 6 people had no choice but to face the reality of things and most importantly, themselves. I love the character Karena. In the movie, she's a struggling writer who falls in love with her publisher, even though she has never met him before. Its romantic in a way, falling in love with someone you've never met. The rational part of your brain tells you that its simply illogical and downright stupid to do so. But somehow, your heart says the opposite.

In the end, Karena found out that he was married.

And she cried.

To him, its nothing but a game. But to her, she gave her all. Does it sound stupid to love a man you've never met?

I may never know.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Submarine Friends

There are certain friends in one's life who are different from what you will consider as normal friends.

In fact, they are quite like submarines.

S is someone whom I know from a very long time ago. I like to think of him as my Yellow Submarine (partly cause his Msn nick has a yellow smiley face on it). Every couple of months, he resurfaces, like a submarine out of the ocean. Casual talking over MSN, few smses here and there.. I cant say I know him but does it really matter? Its just nice to hear about where he has been, countries that I've never been to. Come to think of it, its interesting how different our worlds are and the only link between us is Msn. *shrugs*


Anyway, I'm one of those submarine friends too. On and off, I disappear from my friends lives for a couple of months. When I finally show up at a gathering, people ask: "Where have you been? What have you been doing?". I would answer, with a weak smile, "Busy with work!" Not that I'm really that busy with work, its just because I needed time away from people.

Being with too many people can be very taxing.

Like right now, I'm being a submarine.

Sinking.

Deep into the sea, where the world is silent.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Now, Let there be lights

View from the Window



Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

No, I'm not a lesbian.

My frens bought me a tee-shirt from Thailand. It says:

No, I don't need a drink.

No, I don't want your number.

No, I don't want to give you my number.

No, I'm not a lesbian.

Hmm.. This is going to help my social life. *bleach*

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Plus One the Loneliest Number

Very pleased with my progress at work today. I'm moving on to a higher level, which is managing my own temp gal. She'll be helping me with my orders and other admin stuff. Its a huge step for me and I look forward to it. I think its a chance for me to grow personally.

Maybe its true that you cant have the best of both worlds. Between career and social life, the choice is so apparent. I chose my career. Results? 12 to 14 hours spent at work everyday, that's not including weekends.

I have a full time job.

I don't have time for full time relationships.

However, I do try to stay in touch with my friends. Like last weekend, i met up with Daf and Candice for movie and dinner. The week before that was spent with Huilin at Sentosa. This weekend will be spent with work friends at KTV to celebrate Jennice's birthday.

Come to think of it, maybe my social life isn't tat bad after all.

Then why am I still feeling something/someone is missing in my life? Like in Sex and the City, why do we let what we don't have affect all the things we do have? Why does one minus a plus one feels like it adds up to zero? And why do we feel like a nobody when nobody loves us?

*tIng slaps her forehead.*

I need a new distraction. Fortunately, with my new temp gal coming in and my potential temp boy on his way, I'll most likely be busy to notice that someone/something is missing.

P/S: Notice that i say "something"? Cause I'm not sure if I'm referring to a person or a new Cause/purpose.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Life is a moderately good play with a badly written third act.

Sunday afternoon. Warm, bright and sunny. Armed with a nice, hot steaming cup of strawberry tea, I sat in front of my comp and keyed in the words "Truman Capote".

I became fascinated with Truman Capote after watching the movie. It was a good movie, slow but intense. The deep and strong feelings that Capote had for Perry Smith was showed through the many conversations they had in Perry's cell. Many scenes in the movie also showed Capote's extravagant, celebrated, and outrageous lifestyle, the jokes he made at parties, his reading of his book "In Cold Blood and also the book party of his childhood friend Harper Lee who was the author of the book "To Kill a Mocking Bird". The main character of the book was largely based on Capote. It was also rumoured that Capote wrote a large portion of the book.

Throughout the movie, Capote was also seen having long conversations over the phone with Jack Dunphy, a fellow writer whom he shared a non-exclusive relationship in his life. Capote never hide his sexuality. He was thought by many gay/lesbian groups to very brave for his openess.

There were many scenes in the movie which I found to be quite disturbing. The first one being how Perry Smith described the night of the murder of the Clutther family.

"I didn't want to harm the man. I thought he was a very nice gentleman. Soft-spoken. I thought so right up to the moment I cut his throat."

- Perry Smith, In Cold Blood.

The movie showed how Perry cut the throat of Mr Clutter. Blood gushing out from his throat, his body twitched on the floor. He then moved on to shoot the other three members of the family. All in the head. It was brutal and horrifying. It was scary how calm Perry was when he described how he killed the entire Clutter family. He appeared to be detached from the brutality of the murder.

Another scene which shocked me was the night of the execution of Perry Smith. Capote went to see Perry for the last time. Capote broke down and cried in that scene, which I thought reflected how attached he had become to Perry over the years. Even though Capote was using Perry for his book, he later became more of a friend to Perry. The movie showed the whole process of the execution, how Perrry stood on the wooden platform of the gallows, his hands and legs chained. His head was covered with a black cloth bag and a thick rope placed around his neck.

Capote never walked out of the shadows of Perry's death.

Like his mother, he turned to heavy drinking and drugs. This eventually led to his death on August 25th, 1984.

Truman Capote, 1924 to 1984

Click on the following links to read more about Capote:
Truman Capote - Biography

Capote - Black and White Tribute

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

I'm a ...... a Creator?

My Personal Dna Report

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Ghost of You and Me

A long time ago, this was our song..

What am I supposed to do

With all these blues

Haunting me everywhere

No matter what I do

Watching the candle flicker out

In the evening glow

I can't let go

When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name

For what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts

Go sailing by

Phantom ships lost at sea

And one of them is mine

Raising my glass

I sing a toast to the midnight sky

I wonder why

The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name

For what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me

When will it set me free

I hear the voices call

Following footsteps down the hall

Trying to save what's left

Of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out

In the evening glow

I can't let go

When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you

And baby there's a name

For what you put me through

It isn't love, it's robbery

I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me