A very late Chinese New Year Post

Friday night. Finally gotten myself in front of the comp to start blogging again. New Year came and went as quickly as the snap of the fingers. Didn't really do much over the holidays cause i felt that there was really nothing to celebrate about when your family is kinda falling apart.

I hate the fact that everyone hates each other. I hate the fact that my aunties and uncle are fighting over money issues. Why cant they see the fact that money is not everything? (Though i admit, i think about money ALL the time cause it is SOMETHING that one needs to worry about.)

I miss the times when i was young and we all gathered at my Grandma's place on New Year's Eve. We had steamboat dinner and after which the children played sparklers in the backyard. As we grew older, we ignored each other during dinner and stared blankly at the TV.

Now, we don't even have dinner together anymore.

*tIng sighs.*

Its hard seeing your family fall apart right in front of you. If only i had the courage to stand up and tell my auntie and uncle off. But then, i'll the disrespectful one and my parents would mostly likely disown me and send me off to some island where i'll die alone and hungry.

I cant stand the festive seasons. They makes me feel sad.

Anyway, luckily for me, i had plans with friends over the New Year, which made the holidays slightly more bearable. On New Year's day, i met Kongkong for a round of Warcraft. After which, we had coffee before heading to the New Year's fair at the riverside.

On the expressway down to Marina Square, we actually saw fireworks! We stopped at the roadside to watch the fireworks but it only happened for a few seconds. Such a pity. Pretty things don't always last. *sighs*

I was quite disappointed with the fair cause there wasn't anything special or unique which represents the Chinese culture. I thought it was quite boring. We sat at the riverbank and had snacks, while admiring the city lights. Took many pictures together.. I thot about posting them up but decided against it. I guess i'm not ready for it yet.

After a long walk back to MS, we decided to head home instead. Kongkong drove me home. He walked me up to my place. Just when i was about to step out of the lift, he pulled me back and gave me a kiss on the lips.

*tIng sighs.*

It was a very sweet move. But i chose to ignore that moment for a fact that i know that its very hard for us to turn back time and start anew. I'm not sure of what our relationship is and there are times when i wanted to msg/call him to clarify this. But i stopped myself, of course. I don't want to know the truth.

Well.. at least not now.

Am going to drop by Yufeng's baby chalet tomorrow.. Cant believe she's ONE YEAR OLD ALREADY! Man.. these kids sure grow fast!

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.