Curiosity

"Don't stay with me just out of curiosity, but don't leave me straightaway."

Tian Tian, Shanghai Baby

Like this little phrase i got from the book "Shanghai Baby". More often then not, i find that its relatively easy for people to be attracted to me. Most poeple find my thoughts or jokes amusing, hence the attraction. Its easy for them to believe they are "in love" with whom i appears to be.

As the saying goes, "Curiosity kills the cat", in my situation however, it's more like"Curiousity kills men-who-are-self-delusional." Usually, men are disappointed when they realise what they perceive to be true is totally different from the reality.

Its not difficult to fall in love with me.

The difficult part comes from trying to stay in love with ME.

Once the novelty wears out and reality starts setting in, most men leave. Like most of my past relationships. I've never found anyone who stayed quite long enough to know the real me. Why should they? In the present world, where one can fall in and out of "Love" as quickly as the blink of the eye, one should be amazed if they can stay in a relationship for more than 6 months.

I detest it.

*tIng walks away, shaking her head in despair."

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.