Goodbye 2005, Hello 2006

It’s the 4th day of the year today. Haven been able to blog much due to the many holidays these 2 weeks. Things came and went. I’m still feeling quite disoriented, trying to get used to the fact that 2006 is here.

*tIng sighs.*

Spent the last 2 weeks thinking about all the stuff that happened over the last one year. Honestly, I feel exhausted and drained just thinking about it. I started the new year working 3 different part time jobs at the same time. Not to mention, i was trying to get over a failed relationship. Finally, I settled down, working as a small boutique selling upmarket Chinese apparel. I was having quite a good time, working and clubbing way too much with army boys.

However, just when my birthday was around the corner, my family had to move to my aunt’s place because my new flat was not ready yet. Being forced to move was horrible. No privacy, no space, no late night parties, sleeping on the floor with my mum and sister… It was awful.

I didn’t expect to fall in love. But I did. I thought I could finally stop looking and actually be with some one.

It was also at that time when my Grandma was diagnosed with cancer. Not forgetting Durffy too.

Work started to get really unbearable. I tried to deal with it because I needed the money. But it wasn’t working. Finally, I was being bullied in quitting my job. Did I mention it was an old auntie?

After that, I took up my current job as a Consultant. A total change of environment. An MNC. Real working world with adults. I had to try hard to fit in. I can’t say that I was all prepared for the change. But I had to stick with it. I needed the money. I guess the good thing is that now that I’m 5 months into my job, I actually like it. I look forward to work and I’m getting better at it.

I sort of expected that life wouldn’t be so kind to me. When one side of my life was going well, another side fell apart. I fell out of love. And this time, I fell hard. I saw it coming but couldn’t do anything about it. I no longer believed in love. Getting over a relationship was hard. Dealing with the loneliness and the thought of spending Christmas and New Year alone was tough

After the breakup, I started spending more time at work. Also, my cousin committed suicide and my uncle died too. By this time, Grandma was in and out of the hospital quite often.

The last straw came when my Grandma passed away a few days before Christmas. It was hard for all of us. I felt guilty for not spending enough time with her. But I know I can never make it up to her now.

I spent the last day of the year at home. No mood to celebrate. I just wished to the year to pass quickly.

*tIng sighs.*

I hope 2006 will be a better year.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.