At least I still have Hope

Have been thinking alot about life lately.. For the past 4 months, i've seen 3 deaths in my family. Thought about what living meant to me and what it is to be dead. Could not help but wonder if i'm just living day by day and with nothing to forward to.

I don't want to die but i ain't keen on living either.

My fave line from the song "Feel" by Robbie Williams. Don't really feel the need to carry on. Don't really feel anything.

No lust for life.

Spent the whole life running away.. Not from anyone but Me. Have decided I don't want to run away from my past anyway. Nevertheless, they are still a part of me, making me who i am today.

I'm tired.

I feel drained.

I hope for the year to end quickly. I hope for a better New Year.

At least i still have hope.