Danny called around 2 plus in the afternoon to say that he'll be coming over later in the day cause his friend just got out out jail. Hmm... Before you frown/sigh/raise your eyebrows at me, i must say that i'll not judge a person by his past or whatever. And needless to say, i shall not tolerate any judgements passed from surface evidence.
Anyway, i was quite hungry so i decided to do a little cooking of my own. I thought omelette would be a nice idea. I chopped tomatos cheeze and luncheon meat into chucks, mixing them with 5 eggs (i know its alot but what the hell..) and tried to fry them in my little pan. I think i must have been over ambitious. The mixture was overflowing from the pan and i couldn't even flip the bloody thing over to make it into the usual omelette shape.
In the end, i got pissed so i started stabbing the omelette (or what the mess that was supposed to be the omelette) with my spatula. I thought to myself, "Fuck it man, i shall just make fried eggs instead."
So there, i had a VERY VERY big plate of fried eggs with cheeze, tomatos and luncheon meat. This proves one thing. I'm not a very good cook. *shrugs*
Anyway, when Danny finally came over, he made me dinner. Nice pasta with ham and tomatos. He even fried chicken chucks! He's such a good fellow..
I think i over-ate today..
- 1 Huge omelette
- 1 Banana
- A couple of Cornflakes (I just munch on them randomly)
- Pasta
- 1 Green Apple
- Tea with milk
- Bowl of cornflakes with milk
*tIng pats her stomach and lets out a loud burp.*
Excuse me.. I think i need to rest..
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Boys vs Gals
Just woke up with yet another hangover.. Headache...
*tIng slams her head against the wall.*
Was out yesterday with Danny after work because the gals had a chalet at East Coast and i didn't want to join. Or rather too broke to join. Or maybe not invited to join?! I'm not good with girls. Maybe this is the reason why i have not turned lesbian desipte my haterd for men. *considers* I cant seem to get along with gals like the way with boys. *shrugs*
Was at Parkway yesterday.. Met Danny around 4 plus.. Walked around for a while till it started to rain. Decided that i should just let him trash me in pool so kill time. Played 5 rounds but i won one!!!! Sat and chill at Mac Cafe after pool. The place was quite cooling and relaxing. Had my usual Fluffy (steamed milk with mashmallows)... *tIng licks her lips*
Tim arrived after many phone calls of me sceaming over the phone to asking his ass down here. I decided to bring them to the famous wanton mee store at Joo Chiat. Its sooooo famous but they have NEVER tried it. But after trying, their verdict, if i may quote, "Its good shit, you know!"
After dinner, we went to the Kbox at Parkway. Usually at KTV, i would order drinks like Bubble tea or Coke. However, with the Danny, it was inevitable that we order alcoholic drinks.... It started off innocently with just a Volka Sprite for me and Beer for Danny. Tim was not drinking cause he was driving. After a few songs, Danny ordered another mug of beer and a bottle of Chardonnay for me.
That was the start of the END.
I didn't really get drunk. I has about 1/3 of the bottle and i was actually still sober. But it made me feel sleepy (like all alcohol). We were singing all the way till 2am in the morning which was about a total of 5 over hours! It was fun! I particularly enjoyed singing those scream-at-the-top-of-your-lungs song with the boys. Trust me, they can SCREAM. I thought i'll go deaf and mute after yesterday night.
Danny's coming over later to cook lunch/dinner for me. Lately, we have been doing alot of cooking over at my place. And the truth is, we enjoyed those moments. A few friends cooking dinner together... Talking.. Cooking.. Washing.. And after dinner, we'll just sit around and have a couple of drinks. Its nice and heart-warming. I believe we'll make very good room mates if we lived together.
Tonight : Pasta for the main course and Strawberry ice cream for dessert!
How does that sound?
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
*tIng slams her head against the wall.*
Was out yesterday with Danny after work because the gals had a chalet at East Coast and i didn't want to join. Or rather too broke to join. Or maybe not invited to join?! I'm not good with girls. Maybe this is the reason why i have not turned lesbian desipte my haterd for men. *considers* I cant seem to get along with gals like the way with boys. *shrugs*
Was at Parkway yesterday.. Met Danny around 4 plus.. Walked around for a while till it started to rain. Decided that i should just let him trash me in pool so kill time. Played 5 rounds but i won one!!!! Sat and chill at Mac Cafe after pool. The place was quite cooling and relaxing. Had my usual Fluffy (steamed milk with mashmallows)... *tIng licks her lips*
Tim arrived after many phone calls of me sceaming over the phone to asking his ass down here. I decided to bring them to the famous wanton mee store at Joo Chiat. Its sooooo famous but they have NEVER tried it. But after trying, their verdict, if i may quote, "Its good shit, you know!"
After dinner, we went to the Kbox at Parkway. Usually at KTV, i would order drinks like Bubble tea or Coke. However, with the Danny, it was inevitable that we order alcoholic drinks.... It started off innocently with just a Volka Sprite for me and Beer for Danny. Tim was not drinking cause he was driving. After a few songs, Danny ordered another mug of beer and a bottle of Chardonnay for me.
That was the start of the END.
I didn't really get drunk. I has about 1/3 of the bottle and i was actually still sober. But it made me feel sleepy (like all alcohol). We were singing all the way till 2am in the morning which was about a total of 5 over hours! It was fun! I particularly enjoyed singing those scream-at-the-top-of-your-lungs song with the boys. Trust me, they can SCREAM. I thought i'll go deaf and mute after yesterday night.
Danny's coming over later to cook lunch/dinner for me. Lately, we have been doing alot of cooking over at my place. And the truth is, we enjoyed those moments. A few friends cooking dinner together... Talking.. Cooking.. Washing.. And after dinner, we'll just sit around and have a couple of drinks. Its nice and heart-warming. I believe we'll make very good room mates if we lived together.
Tonight : Pasta for the main course and Strawberry ice cream for dessert!
How does that sound?
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Natalie
Once a upon a time, there was a little town tucked in somewhere in the far corner of this Earth. It was a simple town. Ordinary town folks living ordinary lives. There's really nothing unusual in this town. Nothing except for this little girl by the name of Natalie.
By the first look, there's nothing special about Natalie. Brown hair, small eyes with a tiny nose. She wasn't fat nor was she thin. She wasn't tall but she's not short either.
For one thing, Natalie loved to sit by herself on the park bench to watch the sunset. And she sat there, day after day, alone. She liked watching sunsets. Watching the clouds turn from pink to orange to purple. It amused her quite a bit. Soft fluffy looking clouds, which sometimes looked like ships, dogs or even the people she knew.
One hot summer, the circus came to town. All the people in the town were excited. Small children ran after the big elephants while adults stood at the sidewalk, admiring the beautiful acrobats. Clowns, despite their big red noses and clumsy shoes, played music and danced around the crowd. The people cheered loudly.
That evening, tentages were built in the park. Huge big red and white tents, so big that they looked giant mushrooms, sprouted out from the earth below. Natalie watched sliently on the bench while they built it. Pretty, she thought.
But Natalie didn't care a lot for the circus. She sat at the park bench while all the rest of the town rushed to the park just to look at it. The smell of popcorn and candy floss filled the mid summer air. Natalie liked candy floss and popcorn. In fact, she liked anything that was sweet and sugary.
Suddenly, out of nowhere, a dark shadow appeared in front of Natalie. Natalie stood up and tried backed away. Slowly, the figure stepped into the light. Who is it, Natalie thought.
By the first look, there's nothing special about Natalie. Brown hair, small eyes with a tiny nose. She wasn't fat nor was she thin. She wasn't tall but she's not short either.
So what's so unusual about Natalie, one may ask?
For one thing, Natalie loved to sit by herself on the park bench to watch the sunset. And she sat there, day after day, alone. She liked watching sunsets. Watching the clouds turn from pink to orange to purple. It amused her quite a bit. Soft fluffy looking clouds, which sometimes looked like ships, dogs or even the people she knew.
Natalie liked the clouds.
One hot summer, the circus came to town. All the people in the town were excited. Small children ran after the big elephants while adults stood at the sidewalk, admiring the beautiful acrobats. Clowns, despite their big red noses and clumsy shoes, played music and danced around the crowd. The people cheered loudly.
That evening, tentages were built in the park. Huge big red and white tents, so big that they looked giant mushrooms, sprouted out from the earth below. Natalie watched sliently on the bench while they built it. Pretty, she thought.
But Natalie didn't care a lot for the circus. She sat at the park bench while all the rest of the town rushed to the park just to look at it. The smell of popcorn and candy floss filled the mid summer air. Natalie liked candy floss and popcorn. In fact, she liked anything that was sweet and sugary.
Suddenly, out of nowhere, a dark shadow appeared in front of Natalie. Natalie stood up and tried backed away. Slowly, the figure stepped into the light. Who is it, Natalie thought.
to be continued...
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Just a red speck on my arm
Had really bad pains in the stomach yesterday night.. Couldn't sleep much.. Ard 4 am in the morning, i woke up suddenly, feeling scared. I was in cold sweat and the back of my neck was completely soaked.
Took half a day's leave this morning to see a doctor. Tried to explain to the doctor wat was wrong.. told him that the pains usually comes and goes and it has been like that since the past 6 months. I also told him that there were internal bleeding. He couldn't really tell me wat was wrong with me. So he suggested a blood test. Like most normal people, i asked him what was the blood test for.
He said it might be some ulcers and it may be cancer but we cant be sure until the test results comes out. It'll take about 2 days' time.
Didn't want anyone to make a big deal out of this so i told people at the office that i didn't know what was wrong with me and its just a routine blood test. *shrugs*
Sally msged me today to find out hows the booking of the room at the SAF Yatch club. I told her it was too expensive and way out of my budget. Tim couldn't book for us cause he already booked Danny's chalet for the week after. The gals suggested going to Hotel 81 but i disagreed. I've been to those places and trust me, they are not suitable to people like Yanwen or Eva. Then the gals wanted to rent the Coasta Sands chalet which costs $300+ bucks.
*tIng vomits blood at the thought of the money.*
I told Sally very frankly i don't have that kind of money. I have to pay for housing loans, bill, transport and meals. I don't have money to spend it like that. I didn't want to say this earlier when i didn't want to join them for buffet after Sat's blading. Its not because i didn't want to go but i only had $5 in my pocket.
I think they got upset cause i didn't want to go. I didn't want to make a big deal so i just told her i cant go cause of some health problems. I didn't want to tell her about the blood test or anything because the last thing i need right now is more questioning and explaining WHY i need a blood test.
*tIng pulls her hair in fustration.*
I don't want anyone to know about this. The test results are not out yet so nothing's confirmed. I'll tell them if something's really wrong. But i just hate it when people ask me questions which i do not have answers to. I'm kinda relieved that i'm not with anyone right now. At least if i die *touch wood*, nobody would be tat upset or heartbroken.
Anyway, regardless of the results, nothing will stop me from going to Danny's chalet next friday! No matter how serious it is, it can wait till after the chalet.
Took half a day's leave this morning to see a doctor. Tried to explain to the doctor wat was wrong.. told him that the pains usually comes and goes and it has been like that since the past 6 months. I also told him that there were internal bleeding. He couldn't really tell me wat was wrong with me. So he suggested a blood test. Like most normal people, i asked him what was the blood test for.
When doctors want to stab you with a needle, you ask them what's its for first right?
He said cancer.
I blanked.
I blanked.
He said it might be some ulcers and it may be cancer but we cant be sure until the test results comes out. It'll take about 2 days' time.
I'm sure its not TAT serious.
Most prob just some internal bleeding from ulcers.
I'm sure i'm fine.
Most prob just some internal bleeding from ulcers.
I'm sure i'm fine.
Didn't want anyone to make a big deal out of this so i told people at the office that i didn't know what was wrong with me and its just a routine blood test. *shrugs*
Sally msged me today to find out hows the booking of the room at the SAF Yatch club. I told her it was too expensive and way out of my budget. Tim couldn't book for us cause he already booked Danny's chalet for the week after. The gals suggested going to Hotel 81 but i disagreed. I've been to those places and trust me, they are not suitable to people like Yanwen or Eva. Then the gals wanted to rent the Coasta Sands chalet which costs $300+ bucks.
*tIng vomits blood at the thought of the money.*
I told Sally very frankly i don't have that kind of money. I have to pay for housing loans, bill, transport and meals. I don't have money to spend it like that. I didn't want to say this earlier when i didn't want to join them for buffet after Sat's blading. Its not because i didn't want to go but i only had $5 in my pocket.
I think they got upset cause i didn't want to go. I didn't want to make a big deal so i just told her i cant go cause of some health problems. I didn't want to tell her about the blood test or anything because the last thing i need right now is more questioning and explaining WHY i need a blood test.
*tIng pulls her hair in fustration.*
I don't want anyone to know about this. The test results are not out yet so nothing's confirmed. I'll tell them if something's really wrong. But i just hate it when people ask me questions which i do not have answers to. I'm kinda relieved that i'm not with anyone right now. At least if i die *touch wood*, nobody would be tat upset or heartbroken.
The pain of living day after day without a loved one is the greatest torture.
Anyway, regardless of the results, nothing will stop me from going to Danny's chalet next friday! No matter how serious it is, it can wait till after the chalet.
I'll deal with it later.
Right now, i just want to chill and do my puzzles.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Right now, i just want to chill and do my puzzles.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Crazy Baby
The time when techno got stuck me my head..
Crazy baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
And every day i keep on moving
Baby.... your always on my mind
So darlin' ... i miss you every time
Hey hey baby baby i feel the motion
To hold me lady and i will always miss you darlin' i want you laughing you left me crying
Our secret love.....
Crazy baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont won't let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
and every day i keep on moving
How i live within you
Dont play... dont play my will my heart
But sometimes
We couldnt fight to start
Hey hey baby baby your better with me
My dreams will hold you, and i will love you
Miss you darlin' i want you laughin you left me crying
Its not enough...
Crazy baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
And every day i keep on moving
Baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
And every day i keep on moving
Dont let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
And every day i keep on moving
Baby.... your always on my mind
So darlin' ... i miss you every time
Hey hey baby baby i feel the motion
To hold me lady and i will always miss you darlin' i want you laughing you left me crying
Our secret love.....
Crazy baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont won't let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
and every day i keep on moving
How i live within you
Dont play... dont play my will my heart
But sometimes
We couldnt fight to start
Hey hey baby baby your better with me
My dreams will hold you, and i will love you
Miss you darlin' i want you laughin you left me crying
Its not enough...
Crazy baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
And every day i keep on moving
Baby, the spirit of the motion
Dont let me feel devotion, and every day
I'll always love you
Baby, so let me see the fire
Better step a little higher
And every day i keep on moving
Monday, November 21, 2005
Jolly
Just reached home after an evening spent with myself. Was quite upset at work because my sales did not come in today.. Will come in by this week i hope.. *shrugs*
Decided that i should cheer myself up by doing some shopping of my own. Since the boys are busy with their own stuff, i had some time time to indulge in the girly stuff. First stop of my shopping spree, i went to Kino my very much needed brain stimulants - Su doku! Bought a copy of the Su doku puzzle... 200 over puzzles for just $12! Ain't that a real bargain?!
*tIng grinz widely.*
Yannie commented that i was a Maths freak when i told her that i stayed home at did Su doku. I disagree. I don't really go crazy over maths or numbers. I just happened to like solving puzzles. Unlike human relationships, there's a definate solution for every puzzle. Human relationships are much more complicated. Arguements between families, bad blood between old friends and unresolved issues with ex-bfs.. These are stuff that i don't have solutions for... no matter how hard i try to solve them, there's never going to be a perfect solution. Maybe this explains why i restrict myself to a very small circle of friends. No men, no love interest...Less complicated in a way cause i'm bad at handling human relationships. In fact, i'm a failure at it.
After buying my book, i headed to Best Denki cause i needed new earphones. Bought the cheapest one available cause i know they are not going to last, judging by the way i handle them. After getting my earphones, i decided i needed to pamper myself abit more.
Walked all the way to Far East to get my nails done and my eyebrows shapped. God.. my eyebrows are so thick and bushy, i nearly cried while the gal plucked it. *faints* The things i do for beauty.. *tsk tsk*
Chose this light chestnut brown colour for my nails.. Kinda cool.. never tried it before.. I would love to do my French manicure/pedicure again but i haven got the time and i want to grow my nails longer first.
After a long session of pampering, i was famished. Headed to Old Chang Kee to get my fave fried squid and Spring roll. *licks lips* I sure the fats are heading right where they are supposed to, which of course is NOT MY BREASTS! Gosh.. fats never go where they are supposed to.. I'm pretty fucking sure they are heading for my thighs and butt now. *frowns* Well, i shan't think about it now. I'll just burn it off by jogging. Speaking of which, i've a new target. I'm going to jog all the way from my place to the Bedok Reservoir. Its about 7 or 8km and i think i'll take years to do it.
Was very thristy after eating the fried stuff so i bought sugar-cane juice on my way back to the MRT station. The only bad thing about shopping alone i can think of is the fact that there's no one to hold your drinks while you eat. But nevertheless, i prefer shopping alone or shopping with friends but with purpose. I must highlight the WITH PURPOSE part cause i cant stand shopping around WHOLE DAY, aimlessly and NOT GETTING ANYTHING.
Anyway, after finishing my drink, i tried to look for a rubbish bin but i remembered the only rubbish bin would be at Wisma near the shop Sasa.
*tIng's eyes lights up at the thought of the shop Sasa.*
It must be Heaven's will! You see, i've been eyeing on this new mascara from Japan. Its $24 and i really don't need it (cause i already have 2 at home). But since i was in the shopping mood and i should not go against Heaven's will, i bought it!
*tIng smiles proudly.*
After buying it, i was feeling quite very jolly and made my way home. So here i am, happy and satisfied after my shopping spree. Am going to finish the rest of my wine and do a puzzle or two..
Speaking of wine, i should get proper wine glasses. I'm drinking my wine from a tea cup! Can you imagine tat?! Its almost as bad as drinking wine from a paper cup.
*tIng faints that the thought of drinking wine from a papar cup. Magically, a bucket of water appears out of no where and water is poured over tIng. She awakens.*
I'm sorry. I must have over-reacted again. But i cant help it. I'm those type of people who notices little details. There was once i got upset because Starbucks served my latte in a mug. Seriously, whats the point of having latte if you cant see the 3 separate layers? I get upset when tea are not served in tea cups. I know what a coffee cup looks like and i know the difference between a tea spoon and dessert spoon.
Decided that i should cheer myself up by doing some shopping of my own. Since the boys are busy with their own stuff, i had some time time to indulge in the girly stuff. First stop of my shopping spree, i went to Kino my very much needed brain stimulants - Su doku! Bought a copy of the Su doku puzzle... 200 over puzzles for just $12! Ain't that a real bargain?!
*tIng grinz widely.*
Yannie commented that i was a Maths freak when i told her that i stayed home at did Su doku. I disagree. I don't really go crazy over maths or numbers. I just happened to like solving puzzles. Unlike human relationships, there's a definate solution for every puzzle. Human relationships are much more complicated. Arguements between families, bad blood between old friends and unresolved issues with ex-bfs.. These are stuff that i don't have solutions for... no matter how hard i try to solve them, there's never going to be a perfect solution. Maybe this explains why i restrict myself to a very small circle of friends. No men, no love interest...Less complicated in a way cause i'm bad at handling human relationships. In fact, i'm a failure at it.
I prefer puzzles.
After buying my book, i headed to Best Denki cause i needed new earphones. Bought the cheapest one available cause i know they are not going to last, judging by the way i handle them. After getting my earphones, i decided i needed to pamper myself abit more.
I need a manicure.
Walked all the way to Far East to get my nails done and my eyebrows shapped. God.. my eyebrows are so thick and bushy, i nearly cried while the gal plucked it. *faints* The things i do for beauty.. *tsk tsk*
Chose this light chestnut brown colour for my nails.. Kinda cool.. never tried it before.. I would love to do my French manicure/pedicure again but i haven got the time and i want to grow my nails longer first.
After a long session of pampering, i was famished. Headed to Old Chang Kee to get my fave fried squid and Spring roll. *licks lips* I sure the fats are heading right where they are supposed to, which of course is NOT MY BREASTS! Gosh.. fats never go where they are supposed to.. I'm pretty fucking sure they are heading for my thighs and butt now. *frowns* Well, i shan't think about it now. I'll just burn it off by jogging. Speaking of which, i've a new target. I'm going to jog all the way from my place to the Bedok Reservoir. Its about 7 or 8km and i think i'll take years to do it.
BUT I'LL DO IT.
I swear by my brains.
I swear by my brains.
Was very thristy after eating the fried stuff so i bought sugar-cane juice on my way back to the MRT station. The only bad thing about shopping alone i can think of is the fact that there's no one to hold your drinks while you eat. But nevertheless, i prefer shopping alone or shopping with friends but with purpose. I must highlight the WITH PURPOSE part cause i cant stand shopping around WHOLE DAY, aimlessly and NOT GETTING ANYTHING.
Anyway, after finishing my drink, i tried to look for a rubbish bin but i remembered the only rubbish bin would be at Wisma near the shop Sasa.
*tIng's eyes lights up at the thought of the shop Sasa.*
It must be Heaven's will! You see, i've been eyeing on this new mascara from Japan. Its $24 and i really don't need it (cause i already have 2 at home). But since i was in the shopping mood and i should not go against Heaven's will, i bought it!
*tIng smiles proudly.*
After buying it, i was feeling quite very jolly and made my way home. So here i am, happy and satisfied after my shopping spree. Am going to finish the rest of my wine and do a puzzle or two..
Speaking of wine, i should get proper wine glasses. I'm drinking my wine from a tea cup! Can you imagine tat?! Its almost as bad as drinking wine from a paper cup.
*tIng faints that the thought of drinking wine from a papar cup. Magically, a bucket of water appears out of no where and water is poured over tIng. She awakens.*
I'm sorry. I must have over-reacted again. But i cant help it. I'm those type of people who notices little details. There was once i got upset because Starbucks served my latte in a mug. Seriously, whats the point of having latte if you cant see the 3 separate layers? I get upset when tea are not served in tea cups. I know what a coffee cup looks like and i know the difference between a tea spoon and dessert spoon.
I must stop this.
I'm a freak.
I should just go bury my head in sand and pretend i'm not here.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
I'm a freak.
I should just go bury my head in sand and pretend i'm not here.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Wine & Strawberry Ice Cream
They boys just left after a day spent over at my place. Its nice to spend the day hanging out with friends at home, relaxing.
Went to NTUC to buy food for dinner... Bought lotsa vegs, bacon, ham and stuff.. Couldn't decide on what wine to buy.. In the end, the guys bought beer and i chose a small bottle of chardonnay instead. Bought my fave strawberry ice cream too.. Basically, i just like berries and pink stuff... *shrugs* The girly side of me?
Anyway, I made jelly and cooked rice while the boys did most of the cooking. They fried bacon, potatos and even cooked soup! Amazing for boys isn't it? I'm always so pampered by them. But i did help too.. I did the washing. *grinz*
Had a very filling dinner.. Tim ate most of the jelly while i pigged out on the ice cream and sipped my wine. This just life. Having friends around and simple home-cooked dinner. Chilling out with dessert and wine.
Am so wide awaked now cause i slept 15 hours straight last night. Guess i'm going to polish up my gaming skills. I suck at Warcraft. Its been such a long time since i last played. Danny commented i made him felt like a pussy today cause i made him watch me play Warcraft. He said its usually the bf who plays the game while the gals sat and watch. I was the total opposite.
*tIng shrugs.*
Went to NTUC to buy food for dinner... Bought lotsa vegs, bacon, ham and stuff.. Couldn't decide on what wine to buy.. In the end, the guys bought beer and i chose a small bottle of chardonnay instead. Bought my fave strawberry ice cream too.. Basically, i just like berries and pink stuff... *shrugs* The girly side of me?
Anyway, I made jelly and cooked rice while the boys did most of the cooking. They fried bacon, potatos and even cooked soup! Amazing for boys isn't it? I'm always so pampered by them. But i did help too.. I did the washing. *grinz*
Had a very filling dinner.. Tim ate most of the jelly while i pigged out on the ice cream and sipped my wine. This just life. Having friends around and simple home-cooked dinner. Chilling out with dessert and wine.
Life cant get any better.
Am so wide awaked now cause i slept 15 hours straight last night. Guess i'm going to polish up my gaming skills. I suck at Warcraft. Its been such a long time since i last played. Danny commented i made him felt like a pussy today cause i made him watch me play Warcraft. He said its usually the bf who plays the game while the gals sat and watch. I was the total opposite.
Do you think i chose to be a gal?
*tIng shrugs.*
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Christmas
Its 10am on Sunday morning and i'm bored with nothing to do that will contribute to the rest of the world, i thought i might as well start thinking about Christmas and also my Christmas wish list.
Since most of us (Singaporeans) live in HDB flats with no chimmys, i used to think, as a child, maybe Santa could come down the rubbish chute. However, my new flat, being the newer generation of flat, do not even have a rubbish chute. Now, this is a huge prob for Santa. You see, you cant expect him to get his fat ass into the house by knocking on the door. I'm pretty sure if he does that, no one would answer the door because they are going to think that he's some salesperson selling Christmas items. He cant climb into the house through the window because the moment he tries to do that, he'll gonna get arrested by the ever-so-efficient Singapore police, who will mistaken him for some "Spiderman" thief.
Opps, i sidetracked a little..Despite the slim chances of getting my presents from Santa, i'm still going to come up with a Christmas wish-list, with the hope that some kind soul (with too much money and no where to spend), will send it to me.
Here it goes:
- Blades (A good pair hopefully so i don't have to rent it every week!)
- New Mp3 player (i want to use it when i go jogging)
- Vouchers from any music store
- Vouchers from any boutiques (I desperately need new clothes)
- A bottle of Jacob Creek's Sparkling rose (A blend of Chardonnay and Pinot Noir grapes. Its Pink!)
- Books vouchers (I'm eyeing on Su doku, quotations books... etc)
- Cash (I'll appreciate cash if you dun know what to get me even though its not really Christmasy.)
That's all i can think of for now. I don't usually like the presents people by for me and i have a hard time trying to accept them. So if you don't really know what to buy, give vouchers. Saves a hell lot of trouble.
Anyway, am going to cook noodles now.. I skipped dinner yesterday so i think i better eat something before i faint..
Since most of us (Singaporeans) live in HDB flats with no chimmys, i used to think, as a child, maybe Santa could come down the rubbish chute. However, my new flat, being the newer generation of flat, do not even have a rubbish chute. Now, this is a huge prob for Santa. You see, you cant expect him to get his fat ass into the house by knocking on the door. I'm pretty sure if he does that, no one would answer the door because they are going to think that he's some salesperson selling Christmas items. He cant climb into the house through the window because the moment he tries to do that, he'll gonna get arrested by the ever-so-efficient Singapore police, who will mistaken him for some "Spiderman" thief.
Maybe this is the reason why Santa doesn't visit Singapore..
And the reason why UFOs don't visit Singapore, they cant find parking space.
Opps, i sidetracked a little..Despite the slim chances of getting my presents from Santa, i'm still going to come up with a Christmas wish-list, with the hope that some kind soul (with too much money and no where to spend), will send it to me.
Here it goes:
- Blades (A good pair hopefully so i don't have to rent it every week!)
- New Mp3 player (i want to use it when i go jogging)
- Vouchers from any music store
- Vouchers from any boutiques (I desperately need new clothes)
- A bottle of Jacob Creek's Sparkling rose (A blend of Chardonnay and Pinot Noir grapes. Its Pink!)
- Books vouchers (I'm eyeing on Su doku, quotations books... etc)
- Cash (I'll appreciate cash if you dun know what to get me even though its not really Christmasy.)
That's all i can think of for now. I don't usually like the presents people by for me and i have a hard time trying to accept them. So if you don't really know what to buy, give vouchers. Saves a hell lot of trouble.
Anyway, am going to cook noodles now.. I skipped dinner yesterday so i think i better eat something before i faint..
Be back...
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
A Bug's Life
Was on my way home from work, walking somewhere along the MRT station towards the North-East line, when i suddenly thought about what i would be if i were not human..
Don't ask me why a ladybird. I just think i might want to be a ladybird if i'm not human. Then i started imgaining how i would turn into a ladybird.
With each step i take, my body slowly morphs into a ladybird. I'm going to be bright red in colour. Finally, when my transformation finishes, i would crawl around on the ground. Just when i'm about to fly off somewhere, a guy walk over and step right over me, squashing me to bug pulp.
*tIng shurgs.*
A ladybird!
Don't ask me why a ladybird. I just think i might want to be a ladybird if i'm not human. Then i started imgaining how i would turn into a ladybird.
With each step i take, my body slowly morphs into a ladybird. I'm going to be bright red in colour. Finally, when my transformation finishes, i would crawl around on the ground. Just when i'm about to fly off somewhere, a guy walk over and step right over me, squashing me to bug pulp.
*tIng shurgs.*
I guess that's the end of my life as a bug.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Let Me Die
A song from a very long time ago..
It's time to say fare-well,
No need to cry or feeling sorrow
It's alright, all in the book of life
Heven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world
From black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to me good night
Don't wake when the lightning strikes
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can give me strength to fight,
Till the sky is burning, It's the end of time
Look ahead tomorrow, a long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine don't let it go
You're the only reason night ain't growing cold
What will I do, without you
I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright,
Life, no longer empty,
With you in my heart, In my heart
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to me good night
Don't wake when the lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby
Will there be angels whispering to me good night
Don't wake when the lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby
It's time to say fare-well,
No need to cry or feeling sorrow
It's alright, all in the book of life
Heven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world
From black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to me good night
Don't wake when the lightning strikes
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can give me strength to fight,
Till the sky is burning, It's the end of time
Look ahead tomorrow, a long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine don't let it go
You're the only reason night ain't growing cold
What will I do, without you
I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine, I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace, my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright,
Life, no longer empty,
With you in my heart, In my heart
The Terminal
Was out with the boys last night for drinks... I was pretty tired and was abit fluish but i couldn't turn them down so i just went along.
Went to this place near the Changi Ferry terminal for drinks The place was pretty nice with a good mix of songs. The place actually overlooks the ferry so you could see the little boats parked around the terminal. Occassionally, you might even see planes flying pass. Interesting place...
The drinks were relatively cheap. $18 for a jug of beer. . I'm not a beer person so i had only about half a mug only. Like most gals, i love fruity sweet-tasting drinks like lychee martini and margaritas. I was in the mood for something sweet yesterday so i ordered a Cosmopolitan. The place actually serves peanuts with ikan bilis! Salty and crunchy stuff.. Yummy..
Peanuts are very tricky stuff. Apart from the fact that it is a good finger food which goes well with most drinks such as beer, they can be used for a whole range of other purposes. For example, one could use them to randomly attack his/her friends. *grinz*
This is precisely what i did that night. After half a mug of beer, i was beginning to feel quite restless. So i began picking out peanuts which i thought looked ugly and started throwing them at the boys.
*tIng laughs.*
They tried to dodge my "attacks" for a while, but in the end, they got sooo irritated by me that they decided to fight back instead.
Soon, we were throwing peanuts at each other. It was quite fun actually but very quickly, we ran out of peanuts to we had to stop. I took the remaining peanuts and attempted to shoot them out from my nose.
*tIng takes a peanut, stuff it up her left nostril and attempts to shoot it out.*
I know this sounds digusting and unlady-like. But really, who cares?! Why do i have to pretend to be someone i'm not right? *shrugs* I just want to be silly and chill out. Sometimes, i don't like people to question the things i do cause i do them with no reasoning. I do what i feel like doing.
Went home abt 12 plus..When i reached home, K called me and asked me to go down Club Momo. Apparently, it was some guy's birthday and they were having a party or wat there. I told him i was too tired and ill to go down. *winkz* Of course, i wasn't feeling ill. But i just didn't feel like seeing him.
Am going blading again this afternoon and after that i'm heading home to SLEEP! The boys are supposed to come over on Sunday to fix my windows but i have a strange feeling that they are just going to oversleep and forget all about it.
Have plans next week to check out a new tattoo palour owned by Danny's friend. Danny's going to get another tattoo on his inner arm. I'm just going to hang around and see if there's anything might interests me. I might want to get another one on my lower back which eventually will go up to my waist and to the front.
Its gonna be a pretty big one so i thought i better get some professionaly advice.aka.Danny's friend. I hope he gives me a discount. I'm a cheapskate. I like to get discounts for EVERYTHING. Yupz.. including tattoos. In fact, i got my belly ring because it was on sale not because i really wanted it.
*tIng grinz widely.*
Alright.. I should get back to work... Be back to blog soon..
Went to this place near the Changi Ferry terminal for drinks The place was pretty nice with a good mix of songs. The place actually overlooks the ferry so you could see the little boats parked around the terminal. Occassionally, you might even see planes flying pass. Interesting place...
The drinks were relatively cheap. $18 for a jug of beer. . I'm not a beer person so i had only about half a mug only. Like most gals, i love fruity sweet-tasting drinks like lychee martini and margaritas. I was in the mood for something sweet yesterday so i ordered a Cosmopolitan. The place actually serves peanuts with ikan bilis! Salty and crunchy stuff.. Yummy..
Peanuts are very tricky stuff. Apart from the fact that it is a good finger food which goes well with most drinks such as beer, they can be used for a whole range of other purposes. For example, one could use them to randomly attack his/her friends. *grinz*
This is precisely what i did that night. After half a mug of beer, i was beginning to feel quite restless. So i began picking out peanuts which i thought looked ugly and started throwing them at the boys.
*tIng laughs.*
They tried to dodge my "attacks" for a while, but in the end, they got sooo irritated by me that they decided to fight back instead.
WAR!
Soon, we were throwing peanuts at each other. It was quite fun actually but very quickly, we ran out of peanuts to we had to stop. I took the remaining peanuts and attempted to shoot them out from my nose.
*tIng takes a peanut, stuff it up her left nostril and attempts to shoot it out.*
I know this sounds digusting and unlady-like. But really, who cares?! Why do i have to pretend to be someone i'm not right? *shrugs* I just want to be silly and chill out. Sometimes, i don't like people to question the things i do cause i do them with no reasoning. I do what i feel like doing.
Don't take me too seriously.
I'm actually quite harmless.
Went home abt 12 plus..When i reached home, K called me and asked me to go down Club Momo. Apparently, it was some guy's birthday and they were having a party or wat there. I told him i was too tired and ill to go down. *winkz* Of course, i wasn't feeling ill. But i just didn't feel like seeing him.
Am going blading again this afternoon and after that i'm heading home to SLEEP! The boys are supposed to come over on Sunday to fix my windows but i have a strange feeling that they are just going to oversleep and forget all about it.
Have plans next week to check out a new tattoo palour owned by Danny's friend. Danny's going to get another tattoo on his inner arm. I'm just going to hang around and see if there's anything might interests me. I might want to get another one on my lower back which eventually will go up to my waist and to the front.
Its gonna be a pretty big one so i thought i better get some professionaly advice.aka.Danny's friend. I hope he gives me a discount. I'm a cheapskate. I like to get discounts for EVERYTHING. Yupz.. including tattoos. In fact, i got my belly ring because it was on sale not because i really wanted it.
*tIng grinz widely.*
Alright.. I should get back to work... Be back to blog soon..
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
And they just keep getting worse.
Was at work today when i received a missed call from K and a msg from Don. I've already deleted Don's number from my hp cause i didn't think he was worth my attention at all. But it seems the feeling wasn't mutual after all.
7.19pm
Don : Hey hows work? Wats your favorite restaurant?
I knew it was him because of the way he spelled "favorite" instead of British spelling of "favourite". Don't ask me how i noticed.. I jus do..
9.02pm
Me (still at work) : Who are you?
9.07pm
Don : Umm don. You forgot already
9.08pm
Me : Oh right.. Why? Why ask about my fave place?
9.10pm
Don : Just wondering... Maybe buy you dinner there one day
9.11pm
Me : Hmm.. I could recommend you interesting places with cheap local food
9.13pm
Don : If i buy you dinner i would take you somewhere nice. Wat food you into?
9.15pm
Me : Wats the occasion? Your Birthday?
9.18pm
Don : No reason. Maybe cos your cute? How you know my bday coming up?
9.20pm
Me : I didn't. I merely asked
9.40pm
Don : Does it mean you buy me present? You still not told me your food?
9.42pm
Me : I'll think about it.
I'm sorry. Was i too mean to him? This guy has a gf and he wants to buy me dinner for no reason. He wants to buy me dinner because i'm cute? How old does he thinks i am? 16?
*tIng feels like killing herself.*
Clearly, this guy here wants something from me, even though he said i was immature and playing games with him when he first met me. He obviously doesn't understand the situation. If he thinks i'm playing mind games with him, why still fall for it?
He thinks he know women soooooo well. He thinks he can get anyone to fall for him and sleep with him. But he's so wrong. The way to arouse women is not through physical touch but through their minds. If you can make a gal feel good and laugh with you (definately not at you..there's a HUGE difference).. her body produces chemicals that makes her feel good towards you and eventually wants to mate with you.
And there's K.. The other day, i told him quite casually over the phone that i wanted to watch Harry Potter and its showing this Wednesday. I didn't think much about this until he called me yesterday and asked me out. Mind you.. K has a gf too.. His gf most prob wanted to watch the movie with him. *shrugs*
Gosh.. 6 months ago, i would have no problems playing along with what they wanted and basically toy with them to make them give me what i wanted. Part of me still thinks they deserve being treated like this but yet one tiny part of me keeps telling me i shouldn't be so mean and there's this thing called retribution.
I used to enjoy this kind of relationships with men who are attached. The point being they cant be committed to you because they have gfs and you don't have to feel guilty about not being committed to them too. This kind of relationships used to excite me. I got to enjoy the nice things that the offical gfs don't get and i didn't even have to do anything to get them. I didn't even have to be faithful to those men. Much as i enjoyed it, i got bored of them very quickly.
*tIng yawns.*
I thot i met just about ALL the different kinds of bad men. But till now, their constant ability to disgust me is simply astonishing. They just keep getting worse. Aussie. Singaporeans. One word, my friend...
RB, my friend at work, goes around telling people there's no true love. Despite the fact that i do laugh at her for her cynical behaviour, sometimes i cant help but feel that what she says is true.
7.19pm
Don : Hey hows work? Wats your favorite restaurant?
I knew it was him because of the way he spelled "favorite" instead of British spelling of "favourite". Don't ask me how i noticed.. I jus do..
9.02pm
Me (still at work) : Who are you?
9.07pm
Don : Umm don. You forgot already
9.08pm
Me : Oh right.. Why? Why ask about my fave place?
9.10pm
Don : Just wondering... Maybe buy you dinner there one day
9.11pm
Me : Hmm.. I could recommend you interesting places with cheap local food
9.13pm
Don : If i buy you dinner i would take you somewhere nice. Wat food you into?
9.15pm
Me : Wats the occasion? Your Birthday?
9.18pm
Don : No reason. Maybe cos your cute? How you know my bday coming up?
9.20pm
Me : I didn't. I merely asked
9.40pm
Don : Does it mean you buy me present? You still not told me your food?
9.42pm
Me : I'll think about it.
I'm sorry. Was i too mean to him? This guy has a gf and he wants to buy me dinner for no reason. He wants to buy me dinner because i'm cute? How old does he thinks i am? 16?
*tIng feels like killing herself.*
Clearly, this guy here wants something from me, even though he said i was immature and playing games with him when he first met me. He obviously doesn't understand the situation. If he thinks i'm playing mind games with him, why still fall for it?
He thinks he know women soooooo well. He thinks he can get anyone to fall for him and sleep with him. But he's so wrong. The way to arouse women is not through physical touch but through their minds. If you can make a gal feel good and laugh with you (definately not at you..there's a HUGE difference).. her body produces chemicals that makes her feel good towards you and eventually wants to mate with you.
Its all biology. But he don't know that.
Another point to show how stupid men can be.
Another point to show how stupid men can be.
And there's K.. The other day, i told him quite casually over the phone that i wanted to watch Harry Potter and its showing this Wednesday. I didn't think much about this until he called me yesterday and asked me out. Mind you.. K has a gf too.. His gf most prob wanted to watch the movie with him. *shrugs*
What am I?
A magnet for attached men?
A magnet for attached men?
Gosh.. 6 months ago, i would have no problems playing along with what they wanted and basically toy with them to make them give me what i wanted. Part of me still thinks they deserve being treated like this but yet one tiny part of me keeps telling me i shouldn't be so mean and there's this thing called retribution.
I used to enjoy this kind of relationships with men who are attached. The point being they cant be committed to you because they have gfs and you don't have to feel guilty about not being committed to them too. This kind of relationships used to excite me. I got to enjoy the nice things that the offical gfs don't get and i didn't even have to do anything to get them. I didn't even have to be faithful to those men. Much as i enjoyed it, i got bored of them very quickly.
*tIng yawns.*
I thot i met just about ALL the different kinds of bad men. But till now, their constant ability to disgust me is simply astonishing. They just keep getting worse. Aussie. Singaporeans. One word, my friend...
BASTARDS.
RB, my friend at work, goes around telling people there's no true love. Despite the fact that i do laugh at her for her cynical behaviour, sometimes i cant help but feel that what she says is true.
There's no true love.
And i'm scared that one day i'll believe it.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
And i'm scared that one day i'll believe it.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Raindrops.Matrix.Porn
Random thought at work today when it started raining in the evening time..
I know this may sound silly or even crazy to most people. But what if, by the slightest chance, the raindrops do not want to fall on the ground? What is the world we know is not real? Just like in the movie "The Matrix". What if one day we, like Neo, wake up and find ourselves in the world of The Matrix and everything around us are just computer-generated images?
I know for a fact that raindrops are supposed to fall onto the ground because of the pull of gravity. But there might be a chance that we are wrong, right? If the world is not real and everything we know is fake, then raindrops should not be forced to fall on the ground.
Sometimes, people forgot to questions facts. We just take things for granted and we never ask "Why? What if? But?". In the end, we just go on with our lives, day after day.
But anyway, you don't have to agree with what i say or think. I have too much time to think. Too much brain cells to waste. Been thinking of a new storyline today.. I suppose you could call it a love story. I don't want to put it up yet cause i'm afraid its too morbid/scary/crazy.
*tIng frowns.*
Anyway, i'm looking forward to Danny's birthday chalet on the 3rd Dec. We'll planning a little getaway to the Yatch Club again but this time we'll be staying longer. I'm so excited! Lotsa of alcohol and food. Its just gonna fun hanging out and doing non-girlie stuff!
Was out with the boys yesterday night and we drove to this "haunted" mansion. I'm dead scared of ghosts or anything supernatural so i didn't even walk near the bloody place. Damm the boys.. Always up to no good stuff.. We hung around for a while before moving to Kranji Reservoir. Got lost on our way there.. It was quite scary since it was almost midnight and the roads were dark and eerie. I almost freaked out when Tim said he thought he saw something crossing the road.
Nevertheless, we managed to get to the place in three complete pieces. It was quite cool there. I didn't know we could see Malaysia from the reservoir. It was kinda amazing how close we are to Malaysia.
*Suddenly, out of no where, tIng punches you straight in the face with her right fist.*
Opps.. sorry.. Just trying to get your attention back here. Am telling you that i'm going off now. Going to spend quality time with my new found love:
It's like porn for my brain cells. Highly addictive. If you haven tried it, i shall frown at you.
*tIng frowns at you.*
Tsk tsk.. My brains cells are so excited by it i thought they were heading for an orgasm. *shrugs* Its a pity no men EVER got me close to one.. =(
*tIng pokes your eyes with her fingers.*
What if the rain was not meant to fall onto the ground?
What if the raindrops do not want to fall on the ground?
What if the raindrops do not want to fall on the ground?
I know this may sound silly or even crazy to most people. But what if, by the slightest chance, the raindrops do not want to fall on the ground? What is the world we know is not real? Just like in the movie "The Matrix". What if one day we, like Neo, wake up and find ourselves in the world of The Matrix and everything around us are just computer-generated images?
Its a scary thought but it's still possible.
I know for a fact that raindrops are supposed to fall onto the ground because of the pull of gravity. But there might be a chance that we are wrong, right? If the world is not real and everything we know is fake, then raindrops should not be forced to fall on the ground.
Sometimes, people forgot to questions facts. We just take things for granted and we never ask "Why? What if? But?". In the end, we just go on with our lives, day after day.
But anyway, you don't have to agree with what i say or think. I have too much time to think. Too much brain cells to waste. Been thinking of a new storyline today.. I suppose you could call it a love story. I don't want to put it up yet cause i'm afraid its too morbid/scary/crazy.
*tIng frowns.*
Anyway, i'm looking forward to Danny's birthday chalet on the 3rd Dec. We'll planning a little getaway to the Yatch Club again but this time we'll be staying longer. I'm so excited! Lotsa of alcohol and food. Its just gonna fun hanging out and doing non-girlie stuff!
Was out with the boys yesterday night and we drove to this "haunted" mansion. I'm dead scared of ghosts or anything supernatural so i didn't even walk near the bloody place. Damm the boys.. Always up to no good stuff.. We hung around for a while before moving to Kranji Reservoir. Got lost on our way there.. It was quite scary since it was almost midnight and the roads were dark and eerie. I almost freaked out when Tim said he thought he saw something crossing the road.
Nevertheless, we managed to get to the place in three complete pieces. It was quite cool there. I didn't know we could see Malaysia from the reservoir. It was kinda amazing how close we are to Malaysia.
*Suddenly, out of no where, tIng punches you straight in the face with her right fist.*
Opps.. sorry.. Just trying to get your attention back here. Am telling you that i'm going off now. Going to spend quality time with my new found love:
So duku.
It's like porn for my brain cells. Highly addictive. If you haven tried it, i shall frown at you.
*tIng frowns at you.*
Tsk tsk.. My brains cells are so excited by it i thought they were heading for an orgasm. *shrugs* Its a pity no men EVER got me close to one.. =(
*tIng pokes your eyes with her fingers.*
Quit staring at me.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
I tried to rhyme.
There was a boy who didn't have a face.
All he had was a Question mark in replace.
Everyone he met looked at him with curious face.
"What an odd-looking boy!", they all said.
The boy grew up and his face grew big.
So big that one fine day in May,
His face exploded and burst into flames.
So sad was his parents and friends on his funeral day,
they gave drew a Question mark for his grave.
All he had was a Question mark in replace.
Everyone he met looked at him with curious face.
"What an odd-looking boy!", they all said.
The boy grew up and his face grew big.
So big that one fine day in May,
His face exploded and burst into flames.
So sad was his parents and friends on his funeral day,
they gave drew a Question mark for his grave.
Monday, November 14, 2005
A Series of Unfortunate Events
Monday morning.. Was walking to the bus stop, took out my discmna, only to realise that there's something wrong the earphones.
*tIng took out a sethoscope and examined her earphones carefully. She banged it on the table repeatedly*
What? This cant be happening to me. Damm.. It was 7.30 am in the morning. This should not be happening. I'm a firm believer in signs. And i had a sick feeling that something was going to be wrong today!
Got to work barely on time.. Work work work.. Busy Busy Busy.. By lunchtime, i had completely lost my appetite. *frowns* I cant be losing my appetite. The whole world knows i'll die without food! And i cant even finished my noodles today!
Got back to the office and started to process my claims. This should be a fairly simple task right? Just stick the receipts on paper and process it. Nothing should go wrong right? Nope. I'm an living example of Murphy's Law.
I accidentedly photocopied some my receipts and as a result, ALL of them turned black because they were made of carbon paper and carbon paper turns black when heated!
*tIng slams her head against the table.*
I KNEW IT! I knew something bad was going to happen and it did! How the hell was i supposed to know that you are not supposed to photocopy carbon paper?! *slaps forehead* Just when I thought things can get any worse, a colleague of mine did the same thing to the remining of my receipts just to test it again before i could stop her!
*tIng takes out a knife and stabs herself.*
WHY? Why of all people this has to happen to ME? I must be cursed! How do i know this? Here are some incidents on why i think so:
Incident #1
Last week, while crossing the traffic junction between Ngee Ann City and Mandrin Hotel, a taxi nearly knocked me down! It was green light but he just DID NOT SEE ME!
Incident #2
On the same day, while walking along Orchard road to Somerset MRT station, a tiny little fruit fell from the tree and hit me right on the head. See?! Of all the people walking along the street and of all the trees with fruits, that tiny little thingy had to drop on my head!
Incident #3
Last Saturday, while standing at the side of the road talking to Sally at East Coast Park, a little gal knocked into me with her bicycle. SEE?????? There were like millions of people there but that gal had to knocked into ME!
Do you not see it? I must be cursed! There must be something i could do about it. *considers seriously*
*tIng takes out a yellow tailsman from her pocket. She holds in in her left hand and lights it up. She puts the burning tailsman into a glass of water. Holding the glass in her right hand, she pours it over her head.*
This should help, right?! But i should better be safe than sorry.
*tIng takes out a rabbit foot and clutches it in her hand for a while. Suddenly, she remembers that she's against animal abuse. tIng frowns. She drops the rabbit foot on the floor and it disappears into thin air.*
Does anyone has any way to get rid of bad luck that does NOT involve combustion of coloured paper and animal carcass?
*tIng faints in exasperation.*
*tIng took out a sethoscope and examined her earphones carefully. She banged it on the table repeatedly*
What? This cant be happening to me. Damm.. It was 7.30 am in the morning. This should not be happening. I'm a firm believer in signs. And i had a sick feeling that something was going to be wrong today!
Got to work barely on time.. Work work work.. Busy Busy Busy.. By lunchtime, i had completely lost my appetite. *frowns* I cant be losing my appetite. The whole world knows i'll die without food! And i cant even finished my noodles today!
Got back to the office and started to process my claims. This should be a fairly simple task right? Just stick the receipts on paper and process it. Nothing should go wrong right? Nope. I'm an living example of Murphy's Law.
I managed to screw up the simplest of all task.
I accidentedly photocopied some my receipts and as a result, ALL of them turned black because they were made of carbon paper and carbon paper turns black when heated!
*tIng slams her head against the table.*
I KNEW IT! I knew something bad was going to happen and it did! How the hell was i supposed to know that you are not supposed to photocopy carbon paper?! *slaps forehead* Just when I thought things can get any worse, a colleague of mine did the same thing to the remining of my receipts just to test it again before i could stop her!
*tIng takes out a knife and stabs herself.*
WHY? Why of all people this has to happen to ME? I must be cursed! How do i know this? Here are some incidents on why i think so:
Incident #1
Last week, while crossing the traffic junction between Ngee Ann City and Mandrin Hotel, a taxi nearly knocked me down! It was green light but he just DID NOT SEE ME!
Incident #2
On the same day, while walking along Orchard road to Somerset MRT station, a tiny little fruit fell from the tree and hit me right on the head. See?! Of all the people walking along the street and of all the trees with fruits, that tiny little thingy had to drop on my head!
Incident #3
Last Saturday, while standing at the side of the road talking to Sally at East Coast Park, a little gal knocked into me with her bicycle. SEE?????? There were like millions of people there but that gal had to knocked into ME!
Do you not see it? I must be cursed! There must be something i could do about it. *considers seriously*
*tIng takes out a yellow tailsman from her pocket. She holds in in her left hand and lights it up. She puts the burning tailsman into a glass of water. Holding the glass in her right hand, she pours it over her head.*
This should help, right?! But i should better be safe than sorry.
*tIng takes out a rabbit foot and clutches it in her hand for a while. Suddenly, she remembers that she's against animal abuse. tIng frowns. She drops the rabbit foot on the floor and it disappears into thin air.*
Does anyone has any way to get rid of bad luck that does NOT involve combustion of coloured paper and animal carcass?
*tIng faints in exasperation.*
There has got to be an easier way!
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Freedom
Just got home after yet another chill out session with the boys. Don't worry.. We were not drinking but instead we just drove around looking for nice places to hang out.
Lately, it seems my life has become so simple. And i kinda enjoy the times we spend together. I'm not the typical kind of gal who likes to hang out with gal pals. I do enjoy meeting up with gal friends but if i have to choose, i choose guy friends any time. I'm surrounded by gals in the office most of the time. Sometimes, it just feels good to have a dick in the room.
It feels good to chill with the boys basically because of a few things:
Freedom of speech
Vulgar language is very much welcomed and appreciated. This, of course, may be problem if other gals are present. Sometimes, it just feels good to swear.
Indulgence
Chain-smoking ang drinking are fave activities. In fact, these are mostly what we do all the time. My record this week: Drinking 3 times with the boys and lotsa smoking. (Don't worry, i'm not alcoholic or addicted to smoking.)
Nonsense
As mentioned earlier, we enjoy doing crazy stuff that may scare people away. But trust me, we are harmless. We just need to destress. Don't take us too seriously cause we are just BORED.
See? These are stuff that i cant do with gals. Most gals i know would be offended by vulgar languge or may be put off by the stuff we do. So i guess i'll be stuck with the guys for some time.
Had this very long talk with Danny the other night regarding our relationship status. He was saying things like how lost he was after his relationship for 3 years ended just like that. He said he do not know if he would want to get into another relationship again.
I told him i feel the same way too. I'm enjoying so much freedom and time with myself and them that it would take alot to make me give up all these. I'm actually glad to be done with all the drama and crying in relationships. I feel more at peace and actually more complete being alone. I told him that he should be happy that he's done with relationships. We both agreed that maybe we should just get an apartment in a couple of years time and move in together.
On second thought, we should just get married. Since most people have long term success with friends, maybe its better to marry a friend. *considers*
Gonna go sleep now.. be back to blog later..
Lately, it seems my life has become so simple. And i kinda enjoy the times we spend together. I'm not the typical kind of gal who likes to hang out with gal pals. I do enjoy meeting up with gal friends but if i have to choose, i choose guy friends any time. I'm surrounded by gals in the office most of the time. Sometimes, it just feels good to have a dick in the room.
It feels good to chill with the boys basically because of a few things:
Freedom of speech
Vulgar language is very much welcomed and appreciated. This, of course, may be problem if other gals are present. Sometimes, it just feels good to swear.
Indulgence
Chain-smoking ang drinking are fave activities. In fact, these are mostly what we do all the time. My record this week: Drinking 3 times with the boys and lotsa smoking. (Don't worry, i'm not alcoholic or addicted to smoking.)
Nonsense
As mentioned earlier, we enjoy doing crazy stuff that may scare people away. But trust me, we are harmless. We just need to destress. Don't take us too seriously cause we are just BORED.
See? These are stuff that i cant do with gals. Most gals i know would be offended by vulgar languge or may be put off by the stuff we do. So i guess i'll be stuck with the guys for some time.
Had this very long talk with Danny the other night regarding our relationship status. He was saying things like how lost he was after his relationship for 3 years ended just like that. He said he do not know if he would want to get into another relationship again.
I told him i feel the same way too. I'm enjoying so much freedom and time with myself and them that it would take alot to make me give up all these. I'm actually glad to be done with all the drama and crying in relationships. I feel more at peace and actually more complete being alone. I told him that he should be happy that he's done with relationships. We both agreed that maybe we should just get an apartment in a couple of years time and move in together.
On second thought, we should just get married. Since most people have long term success with friends, maybe its better to marry a friend. *considers*
Gonna go sleep now.. be back to blog later..
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Chill
Its been some time since i last blogged. So i guess i should start by blogging about what happened these few days.
Friday
Danny sent me a msg during, telling me that his gf broke up with him. Finally!! I thot she'll never leave him alone! I'm not the sort of person who gains pleasure from encouraging people to break up. But seeing all the stuff that she did and how sad and unhappy Danny is, i have to ENCOURAGE the breakup.
After work, my collegues and I went for a movie at Cine. We watched "The Exorism of Emily Rose". Its not bad really but i wouldn't call it inspiring yet. There are certain scence i like. One of it is the closing statement scene. It reminded of of the a line in Sex and The City.
Reasonable doubt... Reasonable doubt...
*tIng stares at the screen and ponders for a moment.*
Anyway, after the movie, i headed home to changed and went down Zouk. Sally and Eva were there. While i was there, i met up with Don.aka.Aussie, who turned out to be the biggest jerk of all. He totally thought that most of the gals would like him cause he was AUSSIE. But he's just an asshole who actually has a gf.
See what i mean but i always meet bad men?
Around 12.30am, i was totally digusted by him and i decided to leave and meet up with the boys instead. He insisted on sending me home in a cab. Fine. When i got off, he said "See ya." I gave him a digusted look and refused to answer.
Met the boys at my void deck and we drove off to one of our usual chill out place near Changi Village. I told them about the jerk guy and they chided me for meeting up with him and blah blah. I think i was drunk so i got pissed and started crying. Danny and Tim dote on me too much to let me cry. So they started their "little clowning" to make me laugh. And i did. It's one of those moments when you feel that your friends love you.
Danny, as mentioned earlier, broke up with his gf. In order to help him nurse his broken heart, we decided we should plan a getaway for just the 3 of us. I slept in the car while they drove around to various hotels or country clubs to ask for the rates.
In the end, they decided to rent a room in SAF Yatch Club on Sat night.
Saturday
Met Sally and Eva for another blading session. Wasn't really happy with my blades cause they were rented and wasn't smooth at all! *disappointed face* I want to get my blades.. Soon..
Left around 5.30pm to make my way home to pick up stuff for the "chalet". Took a cab from home to the club. The boys were already there, preparing drinks and food. When i arrived, Danny poured me a glass on Gin and Ginger beer to starters. I took a sip but i didn't really like the Ginger beer taste. Drank about 3/4 of the glass before i finally gave up.
By that time, the food we ordered arrived and we started pigging out. Watched TV for a while and then began drinking again. This time, i decided to switch to Gin and Coke instead. Not a bad combination.. Quite sweet..
Played cards games like Truth or Dare and Five & Ten.. Seriously, i think my drinking ability improved ever since we got together again. Every time we meet, we'll always drink till we are gone. I had like 5 or 6 glasses of Gin and Coke and i was still sober. I was abit tipsy but i didn't puke at all throughout the night.
As usual, after a few drinks, we were doing crazy stuff again! I dard Tim to flash his butt crack to people at the window and Danny forced me to touch Tim's dick! Hahahah... It was ridiculous! At the end of the night, we decided to take a dip at the swimming pool. The view was FANTASTIC. The water was cool and the air was cold. Its even kinda erotic to be swimming in the dark.
After a while, we decided it was time to go to sleep. The room had 2 beds so we push them together to make ONE BIG BED. Tim had one side of the bed while Danny and i shared the other side. Ever since a very loooooong time ago, this sleeping arrangement had been so. Since we were kids, Danny and I always shared beds when we were at chalets. Its really a wonder how come we have not slept together. *hhhmmmmm*
Tim kept us up all night with his constant snoring. Danny had to cover my ears and his ears to try to sleep. We did get a few hours of sleep though.
Now, i'm back home, blogging. Going to get changed and will head out to meet the boys again to continue chilling.
Friday
Danny sent me a msg during, telling me that his gf broke up with him. Finally!! I thot she'll never leave him alone! I'm not the sort of person who gains pleasure from encouraging people to break up. But seeing all the stuff that she did and how sad and unhappy Danny is, i have to ENCOURAGE the breakup.
After work, my collegues and I went for a movie at Cine. We watched "The Exorism of Emily Rose". Its not bad really but i wouldn't call it inspiring yet. There are certain scence i like. One of it is the closing statement scene. It reminded of of the a line in Sex and The City.
"Reasonable doubt in a courtroom can get you acquitted. But reasonable doubt in a relationship makes you feel like a bad person."
Reasonable doubt... Reasonable doubt...
*tIng stares at the screen and ponders for a moment.*
Anyway, after the movie, i headed home to changed and went down Zouk. Sally and Eva were there. While i was there, i met up with Don.aka.Aussie, who turned out to be the biggest jerk of all. He totally thought that most of the gals would like him cause he was AUSSIE. But he's just an asshole who actually has a gf.
See what i mean but i always meet bad men?
Around 12.30am, i was totally digusted by him and i decided to leave and meet up with the boys instead. He insisted on sending me home in a cab. Fine. When i got off, he said "See ya." I gave him a digusted look and refused to answer.
Met the boys at my void deck and we drove off to one of our usual chill out place near Changi Village. I told them about the jerk guy and they chided me for meeting up with him and blah blah. I think i was drunk so i got pissed and started crying. Danny and Tim dote on me too much to let me cry. So they started their "little clowning" to make me laugh. And i did. It's one of those moments when you feel that your friends love you.
Danny, as mentioned earlier, broke up with his gf. In order to help him nurse his broken heart, we decided we should plan a getaway for just the 3 of us. I slept in the car while they drove around to various hotels or country clubs to ask for the rates.
In the end, they decided to rent a room in SAF Yatch Club on Sat night.
Saturday
Met Sally and Eva for another blading session. Wasn't really happy with my blades cause they were rented and wasn't smooth at all! *disappointed face* I want to get my blades.. Soon..
Left around 5.30pm to make my way home to pick up stuff for the "chalet". Took a cab from home to the club. The boys were already there, preparing drinks and food. When i arrived, Danny poured me a glass on Gin and Ginger beer to starters. I took a sip but i didn't really like the Ginger beer taste. Drank about 3/4 of the glass before i finally gave up.
By that time, the food we ordered arrived and we started pigging out. Watched TV for a while and then began drinking again. This time, i decided to switch to Gin and Coke instead. Not a bad combination.. Quite sweet..
Played cards games like Truth or Dare and Five & Ten.. Seriously, i think my drinking ability improved ever since we got together again. Every time we meet, we'll always drink till we are gone. I had like 5 or 6 glasses of Gin and Coke and i was still sober. I was abit tipsy but i didn't puke at all throughout the night.
As usual, after a few drinks, we were doing crazy stuff again! I dard Tim to flash his butt crack to people at the window and Danny forced me to touch Tim's dick! Hahahah... It was ridiculous! At the end of the night, we decided to take a dip at the swimming pool. The view was FANTASTIC. The water was cool and the air was cold. Its even kinda erotic to be swimming in the dark.
Ain't that cool?
After a while, we decided it was time to go to sleep. The room had 2 beds so we push them together to make ONE BIG BED. Tim had one side of the bed while Danny and i shared the other side. Ever since a very loooooong time ago, this sleeping arrangement had been so. Since we were kids, Danny and I always shared beds when we were at chalets. Its really a wonder how come we have not slept together. *hhhmmmmm*
Tim kept us up all night with his constant snoring. Danny had to cover my ears and his ears to try to sleep. We did get a few hours of sleep though.
Now, i'm back home, blogging. Going to get changed and will head out to meet the boys again to continue chilling.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Loneliness
- People drain me, even the closest of friends, and I find loneliness to be the best state in the union to live in.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
The night I thought I was a Vampire
She stood right in front of me. I could smell her sweet scent in the warm summer night. I ran my fingers through her hair and down her back. I pulled her closer to me. I could feel her breath on my skin. I gently kissed her neck, bitting her softly. She let out a soft moan. I could see her veins under her skin.
I sank my teeth deep into her skin. Her body jerked and she struggled to push me away. It was too late. I held her firmly in my arms. She couldn't move. I could feel her pulse getting weaker with each and every second. I feel her trying to gasp for air as i drained her of her life. Soon, she stopped struggling.
Satisfied, i released her. She fell to the ground and lay there, motionless. The moonlight shone on her pearl white skin, making it look eerily pale. She looked so peaceful, as though she had fallen into deep slumber. I licked my lips, savouring every last drop of her. Slowly, i knelt down beside her, stroking her soft brown hair.
"Rest well, my love. For you have given me your most precious treasure. In return, i shall bestow upon you my gift. The gift of Immortality."
I took out a small knife from my pocket and slit my wrist. Blood oozed out from the cut and i held my wrist against her pale lips. She awakens. Her eyes, wide opened, stared right at me. I could sense her desperation for life.
"Drink from me, my love. My blood shall be your answer to immortal life."
She drank from my wrist. She was so thirsty. I had to pull her away to stop her. I looked at her and said, "Now, it is your turn. Take life from all the men you want. Take anyone you want for they are nothing. But remember, do not give them the precious gift i've given you. They do not deserve it."
She looked at me and nodded her head. I wiped of the blood stains from her lips.
"Before that, you must rest. Come and sleep next to me."
I held her close to my body. Her body was no longer warm or soft. It was cold. Icy cold. No breath escaped her body.
At that moment, i wanted her more than anything in the world.
I sank my teeth deep into her skin. Her body jerked and she struggled to push me away. It was too late. I held her firmly in my arms. She couldn't move. I could feel her pulse getting weaker with each and every second. I feel her trying to gasp for air as i drained her of her life. Soon, she stopped struggling.
Satisfied, i released her. She fell to the ground and lay there, motionless. The moonlight shone on her pearl white skin, making it look eerily pale. She looked so peaceful, as though she had fallen into deep slumber. I licked my lips, savouring every last drop of her. Slowly, i knelt down beside her, stroking her soft brown hair.
"Rest well, my love. For you have given me your most precious treasure. In return, i shall bestow upon you my gift. The gift of Immortality."
I took out a small knife from my pocket and slit my wrist. Blood oozed out from the cut and i held my wrist against her pale lips. She awakens. Her eyes, wide opened, stared right at me. I could sense her desperation for life.
"Drink from me, my love. My blood shall be your answer to immortal life."
She drank from my wrist. She was so thirsty. I had to pull her away to stop her. I looked at her and said, "Now, it is your turn. Take life from all the men you want. Take anyone you want for they are nothing. But remember, do not give them the precious gift i've given you. They do not deserve it."
She looked at me and nodded her head. I wiped of the blood stains from her lips.
"Before that, you must rest. Come and sleep next to me."
I held her close to my body. Her body was no longer warm or soft. It was cold. Icy cold. No breath escaped her body.
She was not human.
She was a vampire.
She was a vampire.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Monday, November 07, 2005
Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life.
- Too much happened lately. Too many deaths in the family and i fear that there may be more to come. Too much unhappiness. Some days, I wish to disappear but cannot do so. Often enough, the only happiness in my life is the fact that people cannot contact through my handphone anymore.
- Sense of relief.
- Lately, dinner is spent eating alone in from of the laptop, surfing the net or watching vcds. Turned down friends invitations for meet up. Avoiding human contact. Too easily affected by others. Words they say, things they do or even things they don't do leads to a whole range of emotional reactions in me.So much so that i need to detox from friends. Yes. Even the boys.
- I welcome the peace.
- Not having to talk when i don't want to. Not having to smile when i don't feel like it. There's 2 different persons in me. One is the friendly outgoing gal, known to most ppl as Meiting. And there's tIng, the not so happy twin of the two.
- Often, tIng likes to be alone, minding her own business. Shes doesn't like people poking their noses into her affairs. Neither does she likes to care about other peoples thoughts or feelings. tIng's very selfish. She just likes to do what she wants and get what she wants. She doesn't like people saying things like she has no friends. She does have friends, only thing is that she doesn't want them to be around her too much.
- Life's too short to spend it around unnecessary people.
- tIng knows she's mean and unfeeling. But she's happy being that way. She's too arrogant to admit that she's lonely at times. She doesn't like to show any signs of weaknesses. Loneliness, is a sign of weakness. She craves for love but she despise men. She hates all men and will not forgiven those who has forsaken or betrayed her. She's learning to forgive them. But she'll never forget.
- Eventually, she'll figure things out.
But right now, she's happy.
Eating her quiet dinner in front of the laptop.
Friday, November 04, 2005
I'm Sorry.
Just reached home atfer a "chat" with D. As usual, all the guys who meet me wanted to get something from me. This is the 3rd time this month. What the hell? Do i give people the wrong impression? I told him i did not like what he was trying to do! AGAIN! How many times do i have to go through this shit? Poor D. I basically straightened things out with him, telling him that he's mistaken and i'm not that kind of gal. And i forced him to give me an answer why most men are like that and do i give people the wrong impression! After we clarified things, he said he'll still contact and we can stay as friends.
*tIng raises her eyebrow.*
Do you think i'll believe that? Guys are nothing but animals. Do you think they'll contat a gal whom they know they will not get lucky with with?
I'm so sorry that i'm so unfeeling and cold towards men. I'm so sorry that i no longer feel anything in my heart to even want to try with a new guy.
I was thinking about me today. I must stop lying to myself about Kevin. I have to admit it now. I've stopped loving him during the time when he went sailing for 10 days. K was back and i did not tell him i had a bf. My heart swayed even though i did not meet up with K. I never liked the Milo Kevin made for me. Never did. It was too bland for my taste. I never liked any of his shirts. I felt really guilty when he gave me the letters he wrote to me while he was at sea. But i did not bring it up.
When he wanted to break with me, i asked him to stay. Not because i really loved him. I just did not want to lose and i did not want to be alone. I'm selfish. I don't like the feeling of losing. It was not real. Even after breaking up, i was obsessed with him. Not because i still loved him. Just for the simple reason of not wanting him to be happy. Again, i do not want to lose.
*tIng raises her eyebrow.*
Do you think i'll believe that? Guys are nothing but animals. Do you think they'll contat a gal whom they know they will not get lucky with with?
I'm so sorry that i'm so unfeeling and cold towards men. I'm so sorry that i no longer feel anything in my heart to even want to try with a new guy.
They are not worth it.
I was thinking about me today. I must stop lying to myself about Kevin. I have to admit it now. I've stopped loving him during the time when he went sailing for 10 days. K was back and i did not tell him i had a bf. My heart swayed even though i did not meet up with K. I never liked the Milo Kevin made for me. Never did. It was too bland for my taste. I never liked any of his shirts. I felt really guilty when he gave me the letters he wrote to me while he was at sea. But i did not bring it up.
When he wanted to break with me, i asked him to stay. Not because i really loved him. I just did not want to lose and i did not want to be alone. I'm selfish. I don't like the feeling of losing. It was not real. Even after breaking up, i was obsessed with him. Not because i still loved him. Just for the simple reason of not wanting him to be happy. Again, i do not want to lose.
I'm sorry, Kevin.
I have to stop lying to myself.
I stopped loving you since you left for sea that day.
You've forgotten.
I'm a player too.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
I have to stop lying to myself.
I stopped loving you since you left for sea that day.
You've forgotten.
I'm a player too.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Brain in a Glass Jar
Was on my bed sleeping when i got a call from D at 2 plus am in the morning. I didn't pick it up because i was way to tired and seriously couldn't be bothered by men.
Anyway, i woke up this afternoon, only to see that i have 14 missed calls and 1 msg. All from D. Guess he must be pretty desperate! Do you think i'll believe him when he says something like meeting up for chat in the middle of the night?! *raise eyebrow* I may not be the smartest person around but i don't think i'm that stupid either.
Been thinking about this issue.. God.. Am i just soooo damm attractive that men cant keep their hands off me?! *evil laugh* Ok.. I'm being egoistic. I have a strange thought. What if i remove my physical form and put my brains in a glass jar?! Will men still love me for my brain cells?
No physical form will last forever. Soon, i'll age. I'll grow old and my skin will be wrinkled up like a prune. I'll die. But my brain cells will not.
Why cant men love me for my brain cells?
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
No men should be allowed to disturb my precious beauty sleep.
Anyway, i woke up this afternoon, only to see that i have 14 missed calls and 1 msg. All from D. Guess he must be pretty desperate! Do you think i'll believe him when he says something like meeting up for chat in the middle of the night?! *raise eyebrow* I may not be the smartest person around but i don't think i'm that stupid either.
Whats wrong with these people!?
Been thinking about this issue.. God.. Am i just soooo damm attractive that men cant keep their hands off me?! *evil laugh* Ok.. I'm being egoistic. I have a strange thought. What if i remove my physical form and put my brains in a glass jar?! Will men still love me for my brain cells?
No physical form will last forever. Soon, i'll age. I'll grow old and my skin will be wrinkled up like a prune. I'll die. But my brain cells will not.
*tIng removes her brain and puts it into a glass jar.*
Why cant men love me for my brain cells?
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
I did not get any tissues.
I did not get any tissues.
I did not get any men.
I did not get into Zouk.
End of story.
Good Nitey.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
I did not get any men.
I did not get into Zouk.
End of story.
Good Nitey.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Drink From Me and Live Forever
I'm officially obsessed! I love vampires and i'm addicted to the serial "My date with a Vampire 3"! Gosh.. oh gosh... I love the love story between Yao Chi Sheng Mu and Ren Wang Fuxi. And also the story of Wanyan Bupo. Damm.. I love Wanyan Bupo. I find him attractive! *blushes*
Especially the last few episodes, the part where Yao Chi Sheng Mu said to Ren Wang Fuxi:
This shows how much she loves Ren Wang. So much that she would rather kill him than see him with another woman. *sighs* But how many people can reach that level of pure love? In present society, love is nothing. Love is like fast food. People rather go for cheap trills like flings rather than settle down into a fulfilling relationship. Humans are disgusting. You are lucky if you can find someone to be with for ONE YEAR! People take love for granted. Like K.. He isn't satisfied with just one gf. Thats why he still wants to see me. I know what he wants that why i'm not doing it. I don't want to feel guilty. I don't want this kind of relationship.
Especially the last few episodes, the part where Yao Chi Sheng Mu said to Ren Wang Fuxi:
"If you don't love me, i rather you kill me. Otherwise, i'll kill you because i cant bear the pain of seeing you loving other women."
This shows how much she loves Ren Wang. So much that she would rather kill him than see him with another woman. *sighs* But how many people can reach that level of pure love? In present society, love is nothing. Love is like fast food. People rather go for cheap trills like flings rather than settle down into a fulfilling relationship. Humans are disgusting. You are lucky if you can find someone to be with for ONE YEAR! People take love for granted. Like K.. He isn't satisfied with just one gf. Thats why he still wants to see me. I know what he wants that why i'm not doing it. I don't want to feel guilty. I don't want this kind of relationship.
Now, i only have one love.. Wanyan Bupo. *licks*
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
The night I came home with Tissues
*tIng walks into the room.. stoned.*
Yawnz.. I'm tired. Seriously i think i'm getting old. Clubbing is way too tiring for old folks like me. However, i did really enjoy myself yesterday night. The crowd at Zouk was great. Most people were dressed up in funny costumes.
If i have to choose my fave costume for the night, it would have to be the guy in diapers! Yupz.. you are not reading it wrongly. He was in diapers! Gosh.. I really have to salute his courage. It was wild! Who knows, maybe he has issues?! Not enough motherly love.. And there were lots of guys in skirts too.. I seriously think they are sexually confused! *hahaha*
Maybe it was the alcohol. Maybe it was because i was still sick. Shortly after 2 drinks, i started to feel really horrible. So i told Emmeline and Sharyl that i was going outside for some fresh air. Sat outside Zouk for a while.. And i started to puke on the grass patch outside the carpark.
Yupz.. If you saw a girl in black dress puking outside Zouk, that's me! Gosh.. its so unglam! I sat down on the pavement to calm myself down for a while. Suddenly, out of nowhere, this guy came over and passed me 3 packets of tissues. He was quite nice actually, telling to me take care before walking away.
A few minutes later, another guy walked to me and handed me another 2 packets of tissues. *raise eyebrow* What's the deal here? Is giving gals tissues the new Pick-up thingy to do? My god.. I'm outdated!
Anyway, I thanked him for the tissues but i showed him the other 3 packets that i've gotten. *laughs* He told me his name was Bryan (not sure if i rem correctly). But he was kinda cute. Eurasian, Quite metrosexual, Gay quality, Way too young for me (he's only 20!), Commando (another army boy).. Overall nice but he's too gay/young!
*tIng shakes her head.*
We sat there, talking for awhile before heading back in to look for our friends. Said goodbye to him before leaving. No. I know what you ppl are thinking. I did not get his number and i did not give him my number!
Yawnz.. I'm tired. Seriously i think i'm getting old. Clubbing is way too tiring for old folks like me. However, i did really enjoy myself yesterday night. The crowd at Zouk was great. Most people were dressed up in funny costumes.
If i have to choose my fave costume for the night, it would have to be the guy in diapers! Yupz.. you are not reading it wrongly. He was in diapers! Gosh.. I really have to salute his courage. It was wild! Who knows, maybe he has issues?! Not enough motherly love.. And there were lots of guys in skirts too.. I seriously think they are sexually confused! *hahaha*
Maybe it was the alcohol. Maybe it was because i was still sick. Shortly after 2 drinks, i started to feel really horrible. So i told Emmeline and Sharyl that i was going outside for some fresh air. Sat outside Zouk for a while.. And i started to puke on the grass patch outside the carpark.
Yupz.. If you saw a girl in black dress puking outside Zouk, that's me! Gosh.. its so unglam! I sat down on the pavement to calm myself down for a while. Suddenly, out of nowhere, this guy came over and passed me 3 packets of tissues. He was quite nice actually, telling to me take care before walking away.
A few minutes later, another guy walked to me and handed me another 2 packets of tissues. *raise eyebrow* What's the deal here? Is giving gals tissues the new Pick-up thingy to do? My god.. I'm outdated!
Anyway, I thanked him for the tissues but i showed him the other 3 packets that i've gotten. *laughs* He told me his name was Bryan (not sure if i rem correctly). But he was kinda cute. Eurasian, Quite metrosexual, Gay quality, Way too young for me (he's only 20!), Commando (another army boy).. Overall nice but he's too gay/young!
*tIng shakes her head.*
We sat there, talking for awhile before heading back in to look for our friends. Said goodbye to him before leaving. No. I know what you ppl are thinking. I did not get his number and i did not give him my number!
But It was fun while it lasted.
Plus, i got home with 5 packets of tissues!
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Plus, i got home with 5 packets of tissues!
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
Thoughts @ 11.59 am
Where it all began and Where it all shall end tonight.
At the stroke of 12.. I'll never remember you again
Ashes to ashes.. Dust to dust
There will no longer be you and me
I will no longer wait for the phone call
For i know that will never come.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
At the stroke of 12.. I'll never remember you again
Ashes to ashes.. Dust to dust
There will no longer be you and me
I will no longer wait for the phone call
For i know that will never come.
Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.
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