Not a Good Start

All dressed up. Ready to go. Shit. Cant find shoes. Shit. Hp line cut off. Shit. Fuck. Hell. Still cant find shoes. Must wear ugly shoes. Damm. Damm. I hate this. Why?. Read blogs. Upsetting news. Fuck. I hate men. Shit. Ugly shoes do not fit nicely. Shit.Must go out to get Prepaid card. People stare. Fuck. Get wrong card. Feeling like killing myself now. Run to shop. Get right card.Forgot IC. Must run home get IC. FUCK.Everything is wrong. Everything IS WRONG. Run home. Call K. K not ready. Must wait 30mins. Call Danny. Danny ok with Gf. Good. At least someone is happy. Still upset. Must get over. Must blog when back. Hope find happiness. If not, must have fun with K. Finally. Found good shoes at home. Change ugly shoes to good shoes. Check friendster. 100+ views in 24 hours. Strange. Very strange. All men. Digusting men. One gal. Gal good for now. Must have drinks. Must get over this. Shit.Feel faint now. Feel faint very frequently lately. Puking every morning. Something is wrong with self. Must see doctor. No money to see doctor. But dying is more expensive than see doctor. So will see doctor and will try not to die. Mood swings are bad. Sometimes happy sometimes sad. Sometime happy for 1 sec and sad for 1 sec. Exactly one month anniversary. Must get over. Must find toys. Check mail. 30 msg from men. Disgusting. Something wrong with Friendster. Too many desperate men. Must report all.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.