KTV.Death. Thoughts.

Just reached home from a KTV session with Yenny, Jerry and the rest. On my way home, i was thinking about how bored i was and i needed to do something. Something like a little project... A tattoo was wat i was thinking about.. Or another just something to distract my mind..

My mum called. One of my distant cousin killed himself today. I don't really know what emotions i should be feeling. Sad? Cause he's still so young. Scared. I'm afraid i might do the same thing.

I'm feeling uneasy about the thoughts in my head.

I need something to distract me. Going to find someone to talk to. Danny perhaps? We were talking on the fone last night and he was telling i should behave myself and carry myself properly when i'm in front of other guys/people. They may think badly of me.

I disagree.

If i have to care about what everyone thinks about me, i'll most prob never leave my house. Or maybe never be happy. I cant decide which is worse.

I need to go.

Thoughts about death is lingering at the back of my mind.

I'm not safe to be with myself right now.

I think to go and think about it.

Death.

What does it mean to die?

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.