Green Hair Lesbian Tomboy

As i'm typing this, my hair is covered with dirty green coloured cream and my scalp is itching like hell.

*tIng tries to scratch her head without much success.*

Went to get a haircut from Supercuts at Far East. Told the auntie that i wanted my hair REAL short and she gave me a very weird look. Don't get me wrong. I'm not cutting my hair because i broke up. I'm cutting my hair because i feel like it. Its not an impulse purchase. I've been wanting to do it for a while now.

After getting my haircut, i asked the lady how much it would be to dye it. She told me it was $77. &$@%#% ... What? $77 to dye my short short SHORT hair? She must be crazy! I wun pay for that kind of hair treatment. I rather buy DIY hair dye, which i did of course, and it only cost me $15! *grinz*

So here i am dying my hair and blogging at the same time. Hope it turns out well!

I think i look like a boy now. How? I don't regret cutting my hair but i just think i look like a tomb9y. Maybe i'll attract lesbians now?! *considers* My contacts are drying up.. I should go and wash my hair... Ciao

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Absolute waste of Your time

I'm so hungry right now i can eat a horse. On the other hand, if lies could be eaten, i think i'm might be choking to death by it. *considers*

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

I'm the girl who..

Just came back from yet another one of my jogging sessions.. Felt great today cause i actually jogged further and longer than i did when i first started. Jogged past the community centre again and i finally decided that i should take up my french course which will be starting at end of Oct. I've been wanting to do it for so long and i'm really looking forward to it. *grinz*

Nothing much to blog about my mundane life.. so i thot i might do some soul-searching...

Who i really am is not really reflect in this blog. In fact, these posts only reflects bits and pieces of me. Don't take it, glue it together and think you know me. I'm very much different in real life.

Who i really am...

I'm the girl who got her heart broken by other people.

I'm the girl who believes in ghosts.

I'm the girl who is afraid of the dark.

I'm the girl who cries at a sad movie.

I'm the girl who likes to be alone once in a while.

I'm the girl who likes to get her nails done.

I'm the girl who cheated on her bf.

I'm the girl who always talks too much.

I'm the girl who makes lame jokes and thinks they are funny.

I'm the girl who wants to be loved.

I'm the girl who sits alone in the cinema.

I'm the girl who is very insecure about her feelings.

I'm the girl who is going through a bad breakup.

I'm the girl who asked her bf not to leave her.

I'm the girl who is jealous of the girls who talks to her bf.

I'm the girl who loves romantic comedy.

I'm the girl who believed in love.

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Not Golden but Red

As i'm blogging now, my whole entire body screams in pain. *oUch... OucH..OuCh..* I blame myself for my pain. Hahah. I should have put sun block instead of suntan lotion. Stupid golden tanning oil didn't turn me golden.. I'm sooooo not golden.. In fact, i'm no where near golden.

I'm red.

Fucking hell.. Yesterday when my sister first saw me, she said she cant decide what colour i was.

*tIng raise eyebrow and looks at herself.*

Well, i can safely assure everyone i'm red.. VERY red. Anyway, it looks like i'm going to peel. But at least i bought a new bottle of aleo vera to apply on me. Speaking of which, i should put it in the fridge. Bet that will help.

I'm so tired so i'm not going jogging today. Think my pores need some rest since they are very much in PAIN. Rented 2 new DVDs to pass my time.. Here the thing about being single.. You can do whatever you wan.. when ever you want and you don't owe anyone a fucking explantion! *evil laugh* I'm going to take a nice cool shower and i'm going to nuan in front of my com..

Maybe play abit of Warcraft? *consider*

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Beach.Sun.Boys.Gals.Diet.Lotion

Just got home from at day of sun tanning at Sentosa!! I'm completely burnt! I'm serious. I'm red like a lobster and it hurts.. *whines* But it was fun.. Hang out by the beach with Kathy all day, doing nothing but looking at beach boys/gals and saying mean stuff about fat people/uncles. *hurhur*

Did see a couple of cute guys but Kathy and i are just not that interested anymore. I have enough of boys for now so i'm going to stay off them. Strictly no love diet would be good for de-toxing my body. Talking about diet.. It seems lately i'm not as hungryeveryday as i was a few months back. I didn't finish my fries at mac and i didn't finish my food during dinner. Something is seriously wrong with me. *considers*

Can you believe it? My butt aches from all that cycling yesterday. I believe they are bruised. *considers* Its painful just sitting down now. My shoulders aches too.. I think i'm going to peel. I hate peeling... Better splatter myself with more more more lotion.

*tIng pours lotion all over herself.*

Gotta go.. Blog more next week..

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Yes! Another reason to rejoice!

Just called Kathy.. I'm going Sentosa tomolo!!!! HURRAYS!!!!!

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Cycling. Medicated Plasters.Puck Rock

*tIng walks into the room, yawning.*

Its 3.44am and i just woke up from what was supposed to be a short nap. Gosh.. i slept like a log for the past 6-7 hours. Yupz. That's how tired i am after cycling with my friends this afternoon. Slept with the light in my room switched on.. For the past few days, i didn't switched off my lights at all. I don't know why i did that. But i just felt safer with the lights switched on. In case i wake up in the middle of the night. I don't want to wake up feeling scared and alone.

Really had fun this afternoon.. Yenny, Jerry and Emmeline are such fun gang to be with. We cycled all the way to the bedok jetty. Watched people fish for awhile.. I'm not into fishing. In fact, i'm quite against it. Its so cruel to kill fishes like that.

*tIng shows a digusted face.*

It was fun just cycling up and down East Coast Park. Really enjoyed the salty sea breeze and the warmth of the sun.It's really cheap too! Like $2 for 2 hours i think.. Jerry paid for our bikes even though he really didn't have too. Yenny and him are really nice. Think we're going ice-skating next week! Sounds fun already!

I was so tired and my whole body was aching after the cycling that when i came back, i sticked 2 pieces of the medicated plasters on my shoulders. Gosh.. I smell like old people now.. You know? The way old people smell.. Medicated oil/plasters smell.. Reminds me of my grandpa..Kinda nice and comforting.. I remember that someone told me people don't forget the scents they smell in their lives. Don't know how true is that but there are certain smells that bring back memories of the past. *shrugs*

I'm so god damm hungry now! Missed my dinner cause i slept so long. Argh.. Now i cant decide whether to eat my medicine or not cause i have not had dinner. *considers* Oh what the fuck?! I'm just going to pop it! Listening to Blink 182 now.. Dug it out from my CD collection.. Bought that album like centuries ago! PUCK ROCK RULZ! *hurhur* Its rude.. Its vulgar and I like it! I feel like i'm 17 all over again. Young, hostile BUT not stupid..

*tIng jumps up and down the room, singing at the top of her voice.*

I think i might be staring wide-eyed at the ceiling till morning. No one to talk to now.. Wonders whats on TV? I used to like watching late night TV programmes no matter how stupid they are. At one point in time, i was hooked on Sell-a-vision. It was like my fave. Ok ok.. I know how silly this sounds. Like how can someone like Sell-a-vision?! But i did! And i know EVERY.. its EVERY infommercial. And i'm proud of that. *hurhur*

Gotta pee........ Ciao....

*tIng runs out of the room.*

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Scary thoughts on a Saturday morning

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?

Carrie, Sex and the City

Kinda agree with this.. But i shouldn't let this get into me too much. Not very healthy thoughts. Its a nice, bright and warm Saturday morning at work. Well, i'm supposed to be working but i'm too distracted to work. *sheepish smile* Really looking forward to cycling with my friends later.. Gosh.. Things cant get any better than this. Seriously, what could be better? *considers* Maybe add a cute boy and a glass of lychee martini?!

Am i all alone in this universe?
There's no love on these streets.
I've given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway.

Pee in a Bottle

Just lost every fucking little thing i typed! %^$%@$#@^ Here i go again!

Went to the doctor's for a routine check-up earlier this week. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with me seriously. I went to the clinic, innocently enough, and presented my ID to the nurse. The next moment, she shoved a small plastic bottle, no bigger than a nail polish bottle, into my hand and told me to pee into it.

*tIng shows a disgusted face.*

My god, how am i going to pee into such a small bottle? I don't have a penis! I cant aim! Seriously, if they expect me to pee into such a small hole, the least they could do is to give me a straw right?! *faints* Someone should invent a funnel like thingy for gals to pee into plastic bottle.

Somehow, i managed to get most of my pee into the bottle and not onto my hand. Don't ask me how. I don't want to go into details. *shakes head*

Anyway, everything came out alright except for a slight infection which the doctor prescribed me with some pills. *shrugs* Took a very looooooooong bus ride home since i was not in a hurry to go anywhere. I like long bus rides in the afternoon. I enjoy looking out of the window and let my mind wander freely and aimlessly. *lets out a sigh* Its not everyday when i can slow down my pace and just take in everything around me.

Reached my place around evening time.. The sky was bright and there was a slight breeze blowing through the air. I didn't want to waste the day so i changed into my jogging shoes and went for a quick jog around the neighbourhood.

I like jogging. I like feel the sweat flowing down my back and face. Every step i take forces more air out of me, making me feel as though i'm dying from it. With each breath i take, i feel the air filling my lungs and flowing into my blood. I hear my heartbeats. I feel my heart pounding so hard as though it might burst out of my body in any seconds. I feel.. ALIVE.

Its as though i have been too numb to feel alive. Being able to feel air in me once again wakes me from my death-like slumber. Emotionally i mean...

*tIng takes a deep breath.*

Just reached home from dinner with Stanley. Been kinda long since we last saw each other.. Its nice to meet up with my guy pals once in a while. I like it that i can be absolutely comfortable around them and not having to care about my image. I like being one of the boys too.. Occassionally of course..

Have a whole weekend ahead planned.. Work tomolo morning and in the afternoon, i'm going cycling with Emmelline, Yenny and Jerry. Its a part of my new "Forget-about-Ex-And-Move-On" program. In fact, i've already planned next weekend as well! *hurhur* I'm not going to sit around feeling sad and sorry that no one loves me. I allowed myself to mourn for my lost love for half a day and i moved on. No time to lose! Gotta go stuff before i die!

Plans for next month:
1) Jogging when not meeting friends for dinner
2) Cycling on Saturdays
3) Take up new French class
4) Take up Pilates class

Time to get my act together

I'm starting a new blog cause i believe its time for me to move on. I was showering just now when i suddenly saw his toothbrush on the sink. I couldn't force myself to look at it anymore. My hands trembled as i picked it up. I looked at it for a moment before i stashed it away somewhere in the cupboard. I'm not ready to throw it away yet. But i'm sure i'll..

Just not now..

SuGaR cOateD LieS

You take a sip of it. You lick your lips, savouring every last drop of it. The sweet tasting liquid flows down your throat. The warm sweet taste lingers in your mouth. A taste you will never forget in your life. It flows into your heart, poisoning you so suddenly that you cant even feel it. In seconds, you can no longer feel anything. Numb. The only thought in your mind... The sweet taste of it.